Mon Nov 10
November 10, 2008 10:42am
Yesterday was a nightmare. I woke up so angry. Just generally enraged at the world. Work was so hard and they were making so many changes. Changing …
chorus
9:59pm, November 12, 2009
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About Me
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About Me
diagnosed in 1994 still struggle Just discovered that another part has been running the show for the most part of a year and I wasn't even aware of it. Some of my parts are so closely entertwined that I don't know where one ends and another begins. And I'm very disturbed about what they have been up to. There always has been some disagreements about who exactly is the host personality. The jury is still out on that one. And a year ago I officially changed my name and it was about at that time the problems began, I think because I dropped my first name which I had never really used except in official business but it is the name of one of the parts in question. I just didn't think. I guess hindsight is truly 20/20. There started out to be around 30 of us although many of us have blended. I'm not sure how many there are now. We work fairly well together with an occasional blip. We have an awesome team of Drs and therapists who work with us, very well versed in DID. We consider ourselves very lucky. We have written a book although we are draggin our feet a bit about sending it out. We are the type to research anything that relates to us and when we were first diagnosed in 1994 we did just that. The problem was that everything we read was either too deep or technical for us to understand or it triggered us so we decided that when we were ready that we would write a book that newbies could read that would give them some tools to help them cope that wouldn't trigger them. The problem is that I'm scared to let anyone read it. One day maybe I'll get the courage.... I have 2 beautiful children and 3 beautiful grandchildren. They are my heart.
diagnosed in 1994 still struggle Just discovered that another part has been running the show for the most part of a year and I wasn't even aware of it. Some of my parts are so closely entertwined that I don't know where one ends and another begins. And I'm very disturbed about what they have been up to. There always has been some disagreements about who exactly is the host personality. The jury is still out on that one. And a year ago I officially changed my name and it was about at that time the
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Interests
I love animals of all kinds. I always believed I belonged in the animal world instead of the people world. They truely saved my life as a kid. especially horses. Now I work with horses. I have a cocker spaniel and a couple of cats. They keep me sane. There is nothing like fur. I quilt, play the piano and guitar. knit and crochet, build dollhouses, make jewelry, paint, collage, golf, kayak, tag sale, I love Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, Lord of the Rings, Kingdom of Heaven, The Last Samarai, Lethal Weapon and any good thriller or horror flick. I read Patricia Cornwell, Janet Evanovich, Sue Grafton I like any kind of music except opera but I especially like classic rock I like any foods I'll try anything once except organ meate and I won't eat lamb or veal.
I love animals of all kinds. I always believed I belonged in the animal world instead of the people world.
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Fri Nov 7
November 7, 2008 7:19pm
I am so tired of being sick and tired! I've been rolodexing since I left my therapists office today. It's so exhausting to be switcing so …
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Wed Nov 5
November 5, 2008 9:00pm
Long day, I'm so tired! I didn't sleep at all last night. The memories just keep coming and coming. Triggers everywhere I go, everything I …
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Ray of Sunshine
hey Chorus, I'm sorry to see you are not doing so well. I hope you have a good week at least! Lots of hugs and love,
audrey
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Good morning hope you have a great weekend!
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Glad to see you are doing so well. I hope it stays this way for you. I hope you have a great week ahead of you! Lots of love, hugs and support!
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Thanks. I will be in a better position to talk next week.
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How did you know I was having a rough morning?
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