Marshmallows23's Journal

        I did something yesturday that I'm really PROUD of. I told my sister in law Kathy, that I wouldn't be coming over for Christmas, I would drop the gifts off. The last few years there has been at least 15 people for Christmas, that's just too much comotion, plus I don't feel welcome there anymore. I'd rather sit at home and eat a Hot Dog for supper, than to go over there. I also told Kathy that I would not be coming over anymore, because it causes me too much stress. I'm just so fed up with him putting me down, most of my life. I have decided, to make my own decisions, on how I run my life, if he doesn't like it, he doesn't have to. All my life he has tormented me, in one way or another. He's still pist off at me because, I had a BBQ for Jim's birthday June 29th and invited my sister. Bill already had plans for that night, because he said so, himself. Talk about holding a grudge !

     They had a family portrait done, just after their anniversary in October. I figure that will be my Christmas present, Connie showed me the portraits because she already has hers. Knowing Bill, he might just change his mind and not give me anything, which would be just as well for me. They know I want a new portrait picture, to update my genealogy.  I don't buy Christmas presents, for any of my nieces or nephews EXCEPT Bill's family, because they still, all live together, in his son's house.They're not little kinds nymore, they're grown.  I would like to just buy for Bill and that's all. I can't even take Bill out for his birthday without taking the whole family. Whenever I'm invited to go for dinner they, tell me to buying 2 pies at Cosco cost almost $20, I don't eat that much food, it would be cheaper for me to go to a restaurant. I don't mind taking something, it's only fair, but why do they need to tell me exactly, what they want me to bring. I believe in doing my fair share, not a free ride, like Bill. A suggestion would be nicer, rather than demand you bring something, that they don't want to pay for. He never asked me over for Thanksgiving either so, I'm just as happy. When I went to his 25th Anniversary party, he barely even spoke to me then either. It's his loss and my gain. I get to keep my peace of mind, not being around him.

          They smoke cigarettes, and the whole house reaks of smoke. If I go over, even for just a few minutes, when I come home I have to take a shower and wash all my clothes to get the smell off me. It's REALLY THAT BAD. Jim's house isn't like that although, he doesn't smoke that much, where at Bill's there is always at least two people or more, smoking there, plus they are chain smokers.  Well that's it for now ! Hope you have a Great Monday.

  ~ Barb ~