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Marshmallows23 
It makes me soo angry that Bill makes me feel like such a failure. I feel like I'm not a good person because, I always try to patch things up with him, only for him to knock me back down. Why do I let this bother me ? Why can't I just forget that he exists, and go on with my life without him and his sarcastic comments. He has done this too me all my life. I called Connie and she said he didn't invite her, for Thangiving dinner either so, we both spent our days apart relaxing and doing nothing. We're both in the doghouse TOGETHER. I'd rather be in the dog house with her than with Bill, we'd NEVER SURVIVE. I didn't think sibling rivelry could get that bad. My will has been made out, since Dave died. I'm thinking of taking Bill right out of it. Why should he have any part of it, when he causes me so much grief. I've actually thought of making a letter, to be read when I pass away to Bill, saying " hope you're happy, now that you have ruined mylife all these years. Who are you going to torment, now that I'm no longer here ?" I just don't like not getting along with other people, I always feel it is my fault. and I need to patch things up but it only falls back apart, especially with Bill.
I need to get ready to go to the hospital. I'm going to take some tylenol arthritus, my ankle was killing me after last week, due to the extra walking. It felt good to walk more, but, it make my ankle swell and give me so much pain. Suck it up Barb, it's not that bad. I have to vote today. I'm voting for Lisa Lumley, Conservative party. We don't have much of a choice with political candidates either. Dave and my Dad said, it doesn't matter who you vote for, they don't keep their promises, plus they're all crooks. They will always have more money than we'll ever see.Think there must be some truth to it. What do you think ?
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I have learned the hard way that it is important to cut the "toxic people" in your life out. I had to do that with my own mother. I told her why I was cutting her out of my life and gave her the opportunity to make things right. She didn't so she is history. That is what you have to do with Bill.Muster the courage to tell him to his face how he makes you feel and give him the option to change, otherwise time to write him off. You will be happier for it, unless you want to punish yourelf continually. ((Hugs))marcia
bizemomm
That is so true what Marcia said.No one has the right to treat us like crap or make us feel bad about ourselves.Family included!As of last week my mom is no longer in my life,I am so done with her.She has put me through so much crap my whole life and she recently made a stupid choice and I said fine remember it is your choice.I am done,don't need the crap you keep dishing out,I have enough of my own,don't need yours too.I feel much,much better now that I know I won't see or hear from her.So if you can't take how other people treat you,get rid of them and don't feel guilty.Take care and think of you.HUGS
angelwinks
Sorry about the turmoil with Bill. Sounds like he is definitely a negative person. Talk to God about it and he'll help you with the right decision. xoxo
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