Marshmallows23's Journal

           I'm REALLY DEPRESSED TODAY. I'm like I was the other day when it seemed like I don't have anything to live for. Winkle wants me to pat her, and I don't even care about her either. I wish I didn't have that change in meds, it seems to be making me worse not better. I see Dr, Bordoff on Wednesday,I don't think he is going to be happy with the change. I was just really emotional and would break down once in a while. I was embarassed because I didn't like it.  It seems like I'm like I'm crying ALL THE TIME NOW. Looks like I hopped out of the frying pan into the fire ! Maybe I should go back to where I was before. I at least I had an interest in life, now there's nothing. I don't care. This is my PITS OF HELL, that I'm trying to stay out of. I can be down here as long as three years, and I don't want that. The only way out is a change in meds, believe me I know from past episodes. I'd going to call my Mental Health destress line, that's how bad it is. I hate bothering people, but I NEED HELP ! I need hugs please !

   ~ HUGS ~

 P.S. I talked to the destress line and I'm going to write my letters again, like I did before and take them to the cemetery and read them.

 ~ HUGS AGAIN ~