Journal

      Tuesday June 30 2009   NOT AGAIN  ?

     The alarm went off at 5:00AM. I jumped out of bed, hit
the shower. By the time I got out I started to feel
nauseated. My immediate thought get dressed quick. My
breathing started getting rapid again. My thought was, who
can I call for help at this time of the morning. I decided
to make breakfast and hope the nausea would go away. While
eating it started getting worse. My thoughts by this time
was now what do I do. It was just nausea with a bit light
headedness.
   I wish the doctors could get to the bottom of this. I
photo copied my meds and the report from Barrie and taking
it in with me in case it gets worse. If it does I'll just
go to ER. This is getting just plain rediculous. Why can't
they find the problem. It's almost 6 AM and I have to leave
for the hospital. Wish me luck, I'm going to need it !
   I did my volunteer work without feeling terrible. I went
to the drug store and the packaging for the pills is like a
big book. Don't like the idea I have to go there every
week, but guess I'll have to. Thank you Connie and Jim for
the inconvenience !
    I got really tired and went to bed for a couple of
hours. I went to the satelitte place and he said it still
isn't up. I think it'll be that way for a few months.
Watched TV, bingo and now bed for the night.
   I feel lonely because Jim and Connie are both going away
for the week/weekend. If I get sick I'll just have to drive
myself that's all there is to it.

Wednesday  June 24 2009

        It started when I was on vacation at Carriage Ridge resort near Barrie Ontario. Wednesday morning I got up had a shower, took my breakfast out on the porch. My niece Kelly was putting things on the railing to be handed down to her later. I went to get up and the dizziness threw me back into the chair. My first thought was how am I going to get to the car to come home. I thought about crawling on my hands and knees but later realized that would be impossible. I had no strength to hardly walk. Connie told me to hold onto her shoulders to walk me to the bed. I was all over the place. I finally flopped on the bed but couldn't get my legs up on the bed. Connie called the resort and said we need to call 911. They sent their medical people over til the ambulance came.

     Connie thought maybe they could check me out, and I'd be good enough to get in the car to come home. It didn't happen that way. I was taken by ambulance to Royal Victoria Hospital Barrie. On the way there Dave the attendant said the lights and siren are going on because there is a lot of construction and cars back up all over. I found out later they told Connie It was because I was so unstable they'd have to get to the hospital ASAP.  I felt like I was drunk and ready to pass out at any time. I got help to the washroom but staggered in and flopped on the toilet. I had a speciman bottle and it fell in the toilet. I couldn't hardly hang on to it at all. It's all I could do to walk out of there back to the stretch at the doorway about 2 feet away. The doctor asked what was wrong, I told him. They had me on a blood pressure monitor from the time, the ambulance picked me up.

       Connie went to the front desk after a few of hours and asked when I would be seen, her daughter has to go to work tomorrow in Windsor. It was another couple of hours before he said my tegretol level was really high to get it chcked out as soon as I get home. The nurse wheeled me out to the car. It was all I could do to get into the car. It was like I was a rag doll stuffed into a car and belted in. I was still light headed and dizzy.

     We left the hospital around five and pulled in to Windsor around ten. I could walk by myself but very carefully like I was walking on egg shells and very slowly. Connie and Kelly left and went home. Connie called me an hour later to seee how I was. I told her not much different but I was going to go to bed.

          I had my bi meds changed a couple of weeks ago. I'm feeling better but having a lot of problem sleeping. It'll turn around too, in a couple of weeks I hope. Haven't been on much, just lost interest in everything and everybody, my bi polar kicking in. I don't like it when I'm that way. That's life.

~ HUGS ~