Sometimes I feel like I"m just …
Sometimes I feel like I"m just another burden to everyone around me. I feel like they;'re saying "o here goes Laura …
I LOVE MY IN-LAWS, i wonder if i keep saying it that i might actually believe it one day ....sigh.... Hubby came home from dropping some stuff at his parents house and said to the kids that we're going to see fireworks with Grandma and Grandpa, so they are all excited, so i thought cool they're going with us. Well seems that they are planning to go over to a different place than I thought, they actually invited us to go with them to fireworks tonight in the neighboring community, which i hate going over there cause the place where it is is too small, and parking is a mess, and it's a total pain in the ass to try to get out of there to go home. Last year we all went to another neighboring community where we can park 3 miles from where the actual fireworks are and still see them, we park at a middle school where there is a lot of room for the kiddo's to run around, and then when they are over, i just drive straight out and it's simple to go home. I had no idea that they changed their place of viewing to the place that i can't stand, now the kids are all excited about going with Grandma and Grandpa to fireworks it's not like i can take them where i want to go now. Then Hubby knew that they were going where i hate and still agreed before talking to me about going over there. Him and i had a "little discussion" about him not making any plans without talking to me first. Now he wants to go over to his parents house and just sit there until they are ready to leave, its only 6 they arent going to be leaving for another 2 hrs at the earliest. I have no f-ing idea why the hell he can't just keep his own ass home! Why does he always have to be going somewhere all the time. I just want to spend time with my family at home, is that too much to ask?
Sometimes I feel like I"m just another burden to everyone around me. I feel like they;'re saying "o here goes Laura …
I feel so numb and dead inside. IT's as if I'm fighting an inner war with myself, and somehow I keep losing. A few days …
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