foal's Journal

i feel so low.

my heart just feels like its hanging really heavy.

 i feel so ugly. fat and flabby.

nick says i need to lose weight because im getting fat.

i feel so boring and unglamourous.

i hate everything about myself at the moment. 

i dont even understand why nick is with me anymore. why would he want someone like me?

i just want to cry and dissapear into a hole.

i feel forgotten about by everyone, i feel invisable.

 all my friends are at ui making all this wonderful new friends, traveling to wonderful places. 

and thats it. 

im stuck in a dead end job.

stuck in crewe with no money.

i look discusting.

i hate myself.