foal's Journal

im trying so hard to diet. i want to be skinny so badly. i want a perfect figure, i want to be pretty and loveable. I want to be popular and that girl that everyone wants to be.

i look so boring, i have no confidence.

i wish he cared more. and now i just feel trapped. Everyones having alot of fun, and im jsut here at home while everyones at uni meeting new people.

Im trying to hard to find a new job. crewes a dead end place everythings dried up here no jobs everyones unemployed.

My hours have been cut at work. i cant afford to pay my bills my boyfriend has a much better paid job than me and soon will be on 24k a year im on like 10k. and getting less than 26 hours a week sometimes. i feel so pathetic that i dont have decent grades from college.

i feel so low, i wish i had lots of money, that would solve all my problems right now.

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