Journal

So far so good. I have been super active which was feeling great untill Last night. Aparently I've over done myself enough to get a Hernia now and being uninsured untill April I'm not sure  what to do about it. I can't really afford to get into the Doctor right now and I can't afford to stop doing what i've been doing activity wise either.  I'm going to try and get some more info on this problem as it is very painful and making it difficult to walk  so I'm crossing my fingures that It will all work out & I can find a Middle ground here.

I've been cooking all the meals here and although I have made everything 100% fat free LOL ( I'll never stick to that) I have opted to be strong and stick with my portions instead of letting everyone else push me back for more. My Dad and Mom need help in this area too so I've been making everyones plates and as I stop with only one plate they go back for more and I say if I can do it so can you. Then I talk about how full I am I hope this helps them more than me. I am actually very good a portion control and had lost aroud 60 lbs before moving back in with the parents. I know It works and I'm trying to show them that You can still eat what you like just not as much as you like. So anyways doing good on that part.

Water VS Pepsi.....well I'm still having trouble with this one but Hope to have it knocked out in under a month. I'm setting myself up for Success and not the other way around here. So well thats about It I hope everyone else is doing great at their goals and I'll try to write in the Journal again soon!

So much has happend lately. We got hit with an Ice Storm Lost power it was restored only to loose it again the next morning. We went 3 days and 2 nights after that with nothing. We finally gave in and bought a generator and I kid you noe we get it hooked up and get back home and about 2 hours wham the power was back on. I had two tree land on the kids Trampoline but other then that we are really luck. In the middle of all this hubby has now changed jobs 2 times. He went from his Job of 3 years to another company worked there till last friend when he left there to go to yet another compnay. It had better pay but I asked him to stick with the job of 3 years till he got on at this current company but no he wouldn't do it so now I'm with out insurance and was unable to pay the money upfront to go to my check up.  I'm not very happy with him right now I feel Like my heath was of no importance to him. Then on top of all this It was the kids b-days infact Drew turned 3 the day before the Ice Strom came in & now it's on to Christmas. As far as how i'm feeling I don't think there is a word to discrib it I have been super Stiff and Achey pain through out my whole body for working on 4 days today. It's making getting out of bed a big big challenge and even once I'm out of bed I don't feel like moving at all. Once again no one believes me when I say I can't physically do it and so its looking like my holidays are going to be crappy if I can't get out of this slump. Which I don't know how I'm going to do that I can't even go to the Doctor. Well anyways I hope everyone is feeling better then I am and that you all have a wonderful Christmas!!!