Keys08's Journal

i think i gained some weight back.  i'm afraid to get on a scale.  i was down to 153.8, then i had a few bad days and climbed up to 155, which is around where i should be at again. im just so depressed sometimes and i just eat. i know i shouldnt, but its like my hands and mouth that reach for and eat the food dont really listen to my head. and my head doens't really say no that loudly. theres like, a small no when i reach for more bread or cupcakes or junk food. i need it to be loud and clear! ive got time though, theres always hope. i was thinking of developing menus for myself and sticking to them, but that also seems like a waste of time. i have mental menus........but those dont really seem to work that well. so maybe i SHOULD write them down.  that way i can calculate calories ahead of time and know that ill only be eating the 12-1300. there will be no guessing. ok....on to the gym soon.....