Journal Entry for January 15, 2009
January 15, 2009 11:04pm
Now that Riley is here, I have to try to focus my therapy on working through the death of Hannah. I am so happy with my new little girl, but I …
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About Me
I am a recently married mother to an angel. We married after the loss of our daughter Hannah, not just because we love each other, but so I could have the same last name as my husband and daughter. Hannah is our first, we lost her on June 7, 2007. I delivered by c-section and experienced a severe infection from the surgery. It took me 3 months to recover from the infection. I slept in a bed in my livingroom for 6 weeks until I was finally allowed to go upstairs. Sometimes, I feel like I was given this burden so that I can teach and help others through this very difficult trauma, of course I have to figure out my way through it first. There is quite a learning curve with this because I don't think I am really getting through this very well. I think about my daughter all day, everyday. I love her!
I am a recently married mother to an angel. We married after the loss of our daughter Hannah, not just because we love each other, but so I could have the same last name as my husband and daughter. Hannah is our first, we lost her on June 7, 2007. I delivered by c-section and experienced a severe infection from the surgery. It took me 3 months to recover from the infection. I slept in a bed in my livingroom for 6 weeks until I was finally allowed to go upstairs. Sometimes, I feel like I was given
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December 11, 2008 11:27am
Well, I only have 2 and a half weeks left, and I am getting increasingly nervous. Not just about approaching the point at which we lost Hannah …
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I understand... sometimes I need breaks from DS also. I am not on nearly as much as I was before Felicity was born. But we are busy Felicity will be ONE next month!!!! HUgs girly
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I hope you and little Riley are doing well. Hugs,Cynthia
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Close Miscarriage
I gave birth by c-section to my daughter Hannah Michal on June 7, 2007, stillborn, the cause is unknown. She was 38 weeks, our first. I am struggling trying to understand something that there is no explanation for. She is my beautiful angel, alabaster skin, ruby red lips, and dark brown curly hair, absolutely gorgeous. We got to spend three days with her, the three best days of my life. We had her creamated and keep her safely near our bed. She is forever in our hearts.
Treatments
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I enjoy going to group because it helps me to realize that we are not the only ones.
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- The Paxil helps me to function, it takes the edge off of my sadness, but I still have extreme breakdowns.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I need to go more consistently so that I can get the full benefit of it.
Close Stillbirth
I went into the doctor on June 7, 2007, very upbeat and tired. I had been getting everything ready around the house since my doctor had already taken me out of work. 38 weeks and already dialating, they said it could be anytime. Then I heard the three words I feared more than any, the three words that I didn't think I had to worry about anymore, how naive, "there's no heartbeat". Hannah was delivered later that night by c-section, my sweet angel.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildOn June 7, 2007, I lost my daughter to stillbirth. I am still in the midst of grieving, but am finding that I don't think I know how. I haven't reached anger yet, and I am anxious to do so.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I cry a lot so I don't know if it helps, I always have a headache after.
- Grief Counseling Working / Worked
- I always feel better after a session with a counselor but have struggle with finding someone permanent. I have an appt with a new doctor soon so hopefully, she will be the one.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- We go to a parents loss support group once a month and I really like to go.
- Talking Working / Worked
- DS has been a big help, being able to communicate with others that feel as I do.
Open Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility
I lost my first child Hannah, stillborn on June 7, 2007. I just found out a few days ago that I am pregnant again. I am so very happy, but so very scared.
Open Pregnancy
Currently pregnant for the second time. My first born Hannah, was stillborn on 6/7/07, born by c-section at 10:24 pm.
Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)
My daughter Riley was born on December 26th at 4:13 pm. She is now 5 weeks old. She is our second, her older sister Hannah is an angel. My husband and I are new to parenting even though I have experience with babies, it is different when it is your own.
