mhodges31's Journal

Eleven weeks left at the methadone clinic and I am DONE. I feel like doing a cheer. I am down to 55 mg from 70 mg and I can really tell the difference. My back is starting to hurt really bad again which scares me because that is whhy I started taking pills in the first place. I am just going to have to stay strong and realize that the pills are not the answer. My mom suggested I get a massage which isn't a bad idea. Who doesn't love a great massage? I also started my diet today. The methadone made me gain so much weight and I am sick of it. I actually have a double chin starting. I just can not handle that. I would rather just not eat. I know that's bad but ugh I don't know what to do. I love love to eat. So, I think I am going to have cereal for breakfast, a piece of bread with pb and yougurt for lunch and whatever for dinner. I just have to watch my portions. I am also going to start taking Alli again because it really helped me when I started last time.