mhodges31's Journal

Yesterday was a horrible day. I had a doctor's appt. to determine if I receive disability or not for my bipolar disorder. I have like 20 doctors saying I am bipolar and then I see this quack yesterday who says it is just depression. He also said that I am still angry at my past and that is my problem. First of all, I have come to terms with my past. Second, why can't I be trusted with money and why do I turn violent if I am on an antidepressent alone or nothing at all? He really, really upset me. So, I will probably get turned down from disability but I am going to fight it. I have too much documentation from other doctors that will stand up in court. Also, Mark is staying for now and he is sick of paying half for my treatment (200 dollars) even though he helped me get the drugs. So, I am getting a part time job over the holidays and I will probably decide to keep it. If I keep it, I will be going to school full time, working part time, taking care of my daughter, and everything else. I just think it is kind of selfish. Now that he is going to have that extra money he is going to trade in his car (fully paid off) for a truck or a minivan with a 150 monthly payment. So he is still going to complain he doesn't have any money. Am I the only one who sees a problem with this?