mhodges31's Journal

Well today has been interesting. I do have a lot of family in, which is good because it is the non-judgmental side of the family. They at least help me when they talk. Last night the dear ol' fiancee was talking about "if we ever broke up" and how he never had money. Well basically he was saying "I never have the extra $200- I could have because I shell it out to you for your treatment (for drug abuse)" Oh yeah and he won't marry me until treatment is over (not that it was on the radar at all). I still think it is cruel though because he isn't standing by me at all. I need someone to stand by me not bitch at me all the time. Anyway, I at least got take homes for Sunday secured so I don't have to go to the clinic everyday. Of course I have one for tommorrow for the holidays. Tommorrow is going to be so busy and my mildly agoraphobic self is not going to like it but I will try to deal. Until tommorrow.......