mhodges31's Journal

Well I finally have access to the Internet again. I did so well in late July and early August. I was a completely different person. My doctor had put me on Cymbalta and Invega. My phobias were almost gone. I was happy and no longer snapping at people all the time. Then on August 31st I lost my insurance so I am back to being distraught and anxiety riddled although my phobias have gotten a little better. I did relapse at the beginning of September. I am trying to finish the pills myself instead of going to the Methadone clinic again. I hated going to that place. It was like Hell on Earth having to be there at 6 am and then standing in line for medicine for 2 hours. There just has to be an easier way. So I am down to about 2 pills a day but I want it to be zero. I have gotten into some legal trouble indirectly related to my pill usage but I am hopefully getting that resolved as well.