deepredroses4u

Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Child

I was a mother of 3. I'm now a mother of 2 live children, that is. I lost my first born son. He we 30-something. That was in 2002 or 03, too painful for recall. I have pity-party days.I typed most of MY STORY below under treatments.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

i have days when all i can do is miss my son and cry. I call them my "Eric Days", I just do it alone

Helping Others Considering

I am a nurse, kinda says it all.

Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful

I work. Hard. Long, Long hours.

Music Somewhat Helpful

music helps me get it all out

Pets Working / Worked

my dog, BABY is my soul/sole support. He will come and force kisses on my cheek and take off a few tears. Who couldn't stop crying when your pet can sense your silent tears?

Poetry Somewhat Helpful

I used to write poetry, but I can't seem to begin again

Prayer Not Working

sometimes I know He is far from me. I am too raw with grief so He knows I can't concentrate on His help

Psychotherapy Not Working

years ago while my son was alive. I wanted more than anything to be Mentally and Emotionally mature and healthy in my mind. BEEN THERE, DONE THAT, GOT A T-SHIRT TO GO WITH IT. that's why I am online today.I think i am ready for some baby-step support

Reading Not Working

used tooread like a house on fire, but it all ended in 2003, or was it 2002....can't remember when my son died???? amazing, huh?

Remembering Somewhat Helpful

I have pictures, his hand written childhood drawings, I have his policeman's shirt...I cry my tears on it once in a while when I can brave to take it out and touch it

Support from Friends & Family Not Working

no one wants to go there. So I sit on my pain until I can be alone

Talking Not Working

No one wants to really hear THE STORY of tragedy, everyone has their own burdens

Time Too Soon to Tell

I am numb to real warm feelings anymore. I don't risk loving anyone anymore.