Your a MONSTER
November 9, 2009 1:01pm
***DIsclaimer I STILL can not SPELL nor TYPE well, I apologize *******
Hello to DS. It will be 2 year on the 19 that I first joined this site. …
RedHouse 
6:57am, November 16, 2009
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About Me
RedHouse
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About Me
30 year old spinster. Just been in two different Treatment facility's in the last 2 months. Both wrong for me. I live alone so I can be extremely active with my disorder. I am looking to go to treatment in AZ (not Remuda) but the last place I was at will not give me my deposit back. I am physically a mess. I have a liver tumor that need sugary. My mother basically told me she made peace with my death a few days ago and we have/had a very co-dependent relationship. I feel like this is my last shot, though have felt that before, my body is doing things it's never done before. I'm older now, there is just so many relapses a body can handle. I feel like a mistake and It may be time to just let things happen. WHy keep fighting I guess. Maybe I can meet some others who have been in and out of IP like I have and lost family and friends, and was able to do this alone.
30 year old spinster. Just been in two different Treatment facility's in the last 2 months. Both wrong for me. I live alone so I can be extremely active with my disorder. I am looking to go to treatment in AZ (not Remuda) but the last place I was at will not give me my deposit back. I am physically a mess. I have a liver tumor that need sugary. My mother basically told me she made peace with my death a few days ago and we have/had a very co-dependent relationship. I feel like this is my last shot,
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Interests
I think my interests are pretty basic. I love music, user name is from my favorite "Shudder to Think" song. I listen to all type of music though I tend to like electronic, punk and who knows. I make a lot of crafts that serve no purpose. I exercise a lot but that isn't really an interest as it's more of a personal job. I don't eat meat and haven't since I was a teen, . I enjoy good conversation. Love books and good film. I watch some television but I don't follow any shows consistently I truly hope I am not as boring as the contents of this box may lead you to believe. Who knows
I think my interests are pretty basic. I love music, user name is from my favorite "Shudder to Think"
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2 hugs given, 1 journal comment
November 16
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RedHouse commented on their journal entry Your a MONSTER 7:01am
Leaving today. Hopefully leaving a lot of my disorder behind or getting ready to let go. Something profound.…
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RedHouse updated their status 6:57am
Off to Rosewood. Thanks for the support!…
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RedHouse updated their status 6:57am
Off to Rosewood. Thanks for the support!…
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RedHouse changed their mood to OK 6:57am
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RedHouse gave Slimpics a hug 6:48am
I'm leaving today feel free to come and join me! Your so awesome Shel, I'm glad I had this chance to…
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Journal Entry for November 29, 2007
November 29, 2007 10:54am
To EVERYONE who was kind enough to support me thought my issues with DS, THANK YOU. I have never had that kind of support before, I read and …
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Journal Entry for November 27, 2007
November 27, 2007 10:02am
It may seem like I am over reacting, but if you knew you hurt someone who was already suffering you might react the same way. I joined DS after …
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Journal Entry for November 26, 2007
November 26, 2007 10:32am
This may be my last post here.
I have found a least one person here that I believe will be a good friend and I have felt close to a few other people …
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Hug
Geez. Arizona's not all that far.... wish I could be there too. I'm glad you're going for more treatment, and I wish you THE BEST!
I’m With You
That was so sweet. Just responded.
Ray of Sunshine
Anytime. I just read your other comment and I would miss my kitties, too! But your cat will be waiting for you with all kinds of love when you get home. Be strong! I guess you can't come on here to chat for support when you're in IP, huh?
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Yes, of course we can reconnect, I'd love to! You made a big impact on me too, and I've never forgotten about you. I just needed you to reach out to me as I'm a big isolater too.
I'm heavy into Ed too, so I hope you'll understand that I'm NOT going to suggest we talk on the phone. I'm having a hell of a time managing my time because of ED and all the time THAT takes up. I will be around though, so please write! Sounds like you've got lots to fill me in on! XoOXo 
Hug
Hi, Are you ok? you are being very quiet! Fane x I am here if you want a chat. xx
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Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
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- Paxil Not Working
- Prozac Not Working
- see Paxil, SSRI's do not help me
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Renfrew Center Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Topamax Not Working
- Since I am Bipolar I, I did try Topamax, also for migraine headaches, I had heard this drug would also cause weight loss so I really wanted to try it however It made me feel like I had clay in my brain, I couldn't think correctly or get my words out. I hated that feeling so I stopped it, my mum took it for migraines and felt the same.
- Zoloft Not Working
- i took this for my OCD but I only got worse, just like Luvox. This is how I learned I can not take SSRI's
