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samh1985 
7:56am, May 28, 2009
Ok so heres me trying to get over my stoopid deppression and heres people who are not letting me!! people who leave snidy remarks on my facebook status, people talking behind my back etc.
ok i feel like the only people truly there for me are myself, me and I!!
I moved south because i wanted to be near my familly, now i wish i didnt! i try my hardest to please them and be a good person, but it will never be enuf.
I try my hardest to be a good mum, but its hard. why do people then report me to ss or drop snidy comments and make me feel like the lowest of the low!
I dont know my meaning for being braught into this world, i am a mistake with a soul, so it seems.
i get treat like crap and spoken to like crap and guess what, im an idiot and i put up with it, well thats life. maybe im on this earth to be used as a giggle for people and for people to take the piss out of me. I cant help the way i am and i have tried to change, but not anymore! im never going to try again because no matter what i do, will never change any1's oppinion of me. they always look into the past and dont see my future.
So fuck every1, im getting married to graham and im gona bring my kids up the way i want! not going to let any1 interfiere with my life again!
If any1 thinks im ranting at them, then theyre wrong, im ranting because of what a familly member commented on my facebook status, im not going to delete it off because its obvious its meant to be there!!!
Comments
ok i found this entry very saddening, glad you feel that way about moving closer to family, reguardless of what steve wrote we are all individuals, fuck what anyone says, he only meant it as a joke even tho it shouldnt be said, my reply if i was you would have been ohh haa haa very funny and yeah roo wants D but its because he misses him and if he did want to get outside again it would be because he loves trying to find walls to draw on next, i was really sad reading this journal because i feel usless now and your not the only one who cares about you, i get sad because of shit going on with you and if i diddnt care then how come im at your beck and call, when you fell down stairs i was their, when ever you needed me ive been their, dont feel shit about realing this im just telling you how it is, end of story, book closed!.
eternallybroken