samh1985's Journal

Hi

Just a little note to say im feeling a whole lot happier today!! im just in one of those giddy moods if u know what i mean hehe.

im tired though today coz i went to sleep at 2am coz me and graham were watching a film, and i woke katelyn up for a bottle and a change, but she went back off no probs. Anyway was up at 7am with reece and he decided to wake the full house up hehehe!! got loads on today, alishas at the dr's for her injections but i told graham to take her and he said he would. Also got the portage group with them all today, its for alisha and reece mostly. theyre gonna be shocked at alisha walking now.

got alishas birthday in just over a week no idea what to buy for her but im sure ill find something. god cant believe she's gona be 2 years old already!! need to phone my mum this weekend to ask her if its ok to have a little tea party for her. ill just invite david over coz he will have fun anyways. He's reeces favorate cousin its so nice seeing them play together despite the age difference.

i had a dream the other night that mazz phoned me to tell me she was pregnant :D. wish she was hehehe, think its her turn anyway!! but her time will come when its right. She has finally got what she deserves! a family of her own! and shes happy so im happy for her.

My mum is also happy, shes married and has a nice house, :D she deserves it! I love my family to bits every single one of them! dont know what i would do if i lost any of them, hhmmmm scary thaught.

Anyway hope nothing puts me in a bad mood today because i would only take it out on graham. im slowly starting to realise my faults now, and all this time i keep blaming him. maybe my mums right about the depression, just hope its not postnatal eughh scary thaught!!

but yea as for my update, my mood is FAB!! bye bye xx