Today has been intersteing.. yesterday …
Today has been intersteing.. yesterday i had a horny moment with this 22 year old guy via msn, but i aint ready for …
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calib0i 
2:14am, July 16, 2009
my bf dumped me months ago...after leaving me alone in a trailer with no food or meds for 2 days...its over...i lived with a friend for a bit...who saved me...n now living with one of my brothers from secondlife...but i cant even be a good brother n make him happy...i have no purpose...all i do is wake/sleep/eat n thats all in pain.....im litterally just waiting for my time to run out....n watching it all fall away arround me...your not supposed to be like this when your 21...60-90..yes...but not now...i want my life back....but unless i can get alot of money...the disease will have progressed too far by then....i just want to die now..n save the people who will be taking care of me..the burden..n the pain of watching me slowly die away..n atleast if i do it..i control it...n for once..control the pain..im just so tired...almost every minute of every day i feel like grabbing a knife and ending it...if u dont hear from me again..im sorry i really am...but ill be in a better place even if thats hell or heaven or a ghost..it cant be as bad as this
cya
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my friend.....sorry to hear about your boy friend leaving.....perhaps it was not meant to be.....happens to us all....and the effect of loosing a love one like that .. its hurt....happened to me....plenty of times.......dont do anything like that....satan is putting that awful thought in your mind....dont give into temptation...god is testing your faith my friend.....they care for you because they love you......you are still here because god has a purpose for you , all of us, we may not look at it that way, but there is, and its hurts for some of us, but dont give in............god has a plan for you.........dont give satan the victory my brother........i am here for you always...............praying for you to remain strong in the lord.........the lord is looking upon you..........alls going to be fine...you will see..........god bless you..........gods love
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