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aight well...sorry this is a little long. umm..i'm jay. Those who knew me this time last year, you would find a person depressed for the first time. now, i have completly changed my life arround, and this site helped. So what now? Im much more social, however im not emo, im not goth, im not punk, im not a jock, so i've always wondered, where do my friends and i fit in in this crazy party called highschool?
aight well...sorry this is a little long. umm..i'm jay. Those who knew me this time last year, you would find a person depressed for the first time. now, i have completly changed my life arround, and this site helped. So what now? Im much more social, however im not emo, im not goth, im not punk, im not a jock, so i've always wondered, where do my friends and i fit in in this crazy party called highschool?
i play guitar, piano, i sing, so ya music is my life..i'd love to major it in. also, i like science for some reason, areospace, chemistry, bacteria... and psyciatry(however u spell it) Ive been told that im easy to get along with and tell alrite advice... but hey who am i to judge?
i play guitar, piano, i sing, so ya music is my life..i'd love to major it in. also, i like science for
Thnks 4 takin time to read my journal=) ur awesome=)
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okay you my dear need to text me!! new phone number, text me your name so i know its you and not some creeper :) 210 414 9309
Yeah. :) I'm alright I guess.
what can i say... im a teen and i get depressed from time to time. and i've done alot of things previously... that when i'm undepressed i feel so bad because i hate to hurt my friends who care about me.
the endless homework... exams... tests... dosn't seem like much to complain about, but its killing me right now.
i hate this war so much. i don't see a point in it all all other than getting oil. from what it looks like to me,( i mean i could be wrong) but it looks like bush trying to finish what his dad started. calling his men to stand infront of him while he gets his oil like a little baby. and now, my cuzion has just left to fight in the war. but he's still alive yay!
im so "anti-social" that really sums it up outside my friends... when there not around sometimes i just sit there and look like an idiot. it seems like everywhere i go everybody has friends but me. and i always think bad of myself... no, i'm not alone, but sometimes its hard convinceing myself that
like many people i know, this is how i get away from the family or just destress. my dad thinks im on the computer alot more than i am and yells at me for it. im online alot though sometimes. the addiction comes on and off.
picture this: your head hurts like hell, and as your walking across the hall to your parents room. when you get to the door to their room(its closed) you see two of them. you try to open the wrong one and bang into the wall. and then you pass out from the pain of your migrane and hitting the wall. yeah....
i'm not completely sure, but i've taken a few doctor tests and i'm almost sure i have ADD. it'd make alot of sence the more i think about it. too afraid to go to parents about it because whenever i do they get mad.
again, i'm not completely sure about this because i havn't been to a doctor or anything. but after all the online tests and stuff it'd make sence.
i bottle things up untill they explode. i know i shouldn't but i don't have anyone to open up to. the explosions can be pretty devistating...
umm well... i'm biracial as you can see by my pics...
umm its not porn exactly.... i feel so ashamed of this but its a part of me... i just don't want to look like some skirt chaseing idiot...which is what it looks like but its not, i hope