Electrochique's Journal

all my friends are going out tonight and I think they are trying to keep it a secret from me. They keep talkig about it over facebook saying things like 'TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE EPIC' and 'tonight :)' or ' looking forward to tonight'
Why do they hate me so much? I've been making a real effort to go out and have fun, I don't want to end up agrophobic, it's already in my family so I'm not doing myself any favouurs here. Anyway, making an effort just to go out and not worry about it but they jet knock me down, havig their little secret parties. Anyone that reads this will think 'oh they just forgot to invite you' no, I'm absolutely sure that they just HATE me. I'm too boring, I have too many problems and I'm jdut not fun enough. Louise is trying to set me up with this boy Todd, but I bet I'll be too boring for him too. Sometimes I just want to leave and start again somewhere else where I can be eho I want. I'm doug that next year I just have to remember that this I'd practice so I an be the most perfect person I can be, and that's all that matters.