biddy1's Journal

Well hello all,

It has been absolutly ages since i have been on here, loads has happened, far too much to jot down....lol.  All in all though i have to say that i have been feeling quite a bit better. I still get panic attacks but not as regular and thankfully not just as frightning, im not sure what made them begin to subside but i remember making a decision at one point to go out with my cousin to a ladies night and after a wee while i started to settle down.  after that things gradually got better and i tried to push myself into situations where perhaps previously i would have fled in case of an attack, but i found myself beginning to relax....which for me was strange. hopefully this is the start of recovery for me, i dont want to jinx it by saying that but i do feel as if i have turned a corner.  I am still on my meds and i occasionally still get a small amount of diazepam from my dr to help incase of a large attack or incase i cant sleep......as a lot of you will know, if you miss out on your sleep then it makes you more prone to hightend feelings which to me resulted in panic attacks and feelings of derealisation.

i hope all of you are well.........ttfn xxx