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pgreen 
1:39pm, October 23, 2009
Almost everyday for the last 5 months it has rained . I never experienced such a climate consistancy . I can almost imagine the cycle of evaopration and rain repeating itself over each day as it plays out it's weather dance in the creation. Almost like clockwork around 1 pm every day the faucet open up and the rains pour , sometimes for an hour sometimes for hours !
But, I have learned to accept this as a way of life in the tropics. Not exactly what I thought would be awaiting me when I finally moved here. Regardless, I do know ( and have been promised) that by next month ( NOV) the summer will arrive and all the glory and warmth that everyone dreams of .
This is , for me, a sort of paradigm of my life. So many rainy, dreary overcast days of pain and limitation. I have to go back to the US soon and deal with more unjustified and unnecessary stuff. My attitude is that , if my Higher Power who knows what is best for me deems it required than" Thy Will Be Done". I am not really happy about having to return , but I will make it an opportunity for postiveness too.
As the last 6 months have been challanging to me in some ways here, I have grown outside my comfort zone in many ways . One of the gretaest gifts I have found are the beautiful friends I have made on this DS site. After so many years of BS ( as in Bull SH-T) from people and their ungenuiness, I how found some very dear people here how , as we say in the professional jargon " Walk the walk an dnot just talk the talk". I need that and trusting others and the disappointments they give has been one of my lifelong issues.
Those who have become my friends have enrichened my life and made the changes I have undergone valuable and do-able. This is the true secret to life and living. To be and not to have. Things come and go, true friendship endures and grows in value and transcends limitations.
There are no accidents , I am because I need to be where I am for my best interest in this life.
Comments
This is wonderful to read Phil...you are truly finding where you are meant to be, who you are, and dealing with it all with such acceptance, yet graciously accepting the challenges around you too. You are a different man from the one who came on DS last year, and if I'm a tiny part of your amazing metamorphosis..I am truly honoured. With Love, Little brother...Diana.
twilightmoon
I love this too, thanks for sharing with us what's going on and how you're dealing with it. Very spiritual you are, taking things as lessons and growth opportunities. Thanks for your friendship. xoxo
Gabrador
"Thy will be done" Love your journal. Turning it into something positive is what it's all about, not easy though! So glad to be your friend! xxxooo
dkay
Hello phil, I only wish I had ur attitude towards life, maybe someday, u are an insperation to me with ur words,,and have a way of turning things around to think of the positive things in life,,may god bless u, u are a special person and I am so glad to be ur friend,,michelle
shell03133
Your self growth and awareness of the beauties and intracies of life is amazing. You have found the value of life .. in growing beyond our boundaries (our comfort zone) in order to receive the true blessings that are in store. The friendships here are real and genuine and it is the gift DailyStrength allows us to find in each other. Truly thank you for sharing your insight and wisdom and for sharing your frienship; it is treasured. If you come back to the states, it is because there is another treasure in store for you. It is like a present, unknown to you and waiting to be opened. Many (((Hugs))) Phil .. Ranae
heartgirl