Jakobsmommyalways

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

My son Jakob passed away at about 10 weeks old on sept 20th 2007. He was healthy, perfect. He got his vaccines on sept 17th and two and 1/2 days later, gone. They determined the cause of death as interstitial pneumonitis. He was miss-diagnosed three times, one of those was at his last apt 2.5 days before he got his wings. Life pretty much sucks right now. I can't seem to get myself to function normally. Cant sleep, cant eat right.

Treatments

Seroquel Working / Worked

great for sleeping.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

It helps to vent.

Zoloft Working / Worked

Working well. Had a few headaches, but I can get out of bed now.

Open Bereavement

I lost my baby boy at 10 weeks on sept 20th 2007. He was healthy, it was interstital pneumonitis. Someone's ignorance to his symptoms, or his vaccinations took my son's life. I WILL get to the bottom of this.

Treatments

Crying Working / Worked

Getting Angry Working / Worked

Grief Counseling Working / Worked

Prayer Working / Worked

The only thing really getting us through

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Reading Working / Worked

Remembering Working / Worked

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

Support Groups Working / Worked

Talking Working / Worked

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

My son passed away on sept 20th of 07. he was born July 11th 07. Jakob layed down for a nap and woke up in heaven. I am having flashbacks of that terrible day constantly. At times during the day, things will trigger it, when i get in bed and close my eyes, it triggers it every time. I fall asleep with that image in my head every night. I dont know how to make it stop.

Treatments

Reading Working / Worked

It was a great help to me to read about others who have experienced this, I know I am not alone even though I feel alone at times.

Supportive Care Working / Worked

I have a lot of support from my family and a few friends.

Talking Working / Worked

Talking about "the day" does help me get it out instead of keeping it bottled up inside of me.

Zoloft Too Soon to Tell

Open War in Iraq

my husband was in Iraq from May until sept. Jason had to come home on emergency leave to burry our 10 week old son Jakob he never got to meet. It pisses me off. They gave him the option to come home for the birth, but he would have been gone for a year straight after that. So we decided to wait until nov. Why couldnt they have sent him home for the birth for a week, and then back on leave later. I didnt keep up with the politics, because that pissed me off too. It's not worth it to me.

Open Sexual Abuse

I was raped repeatedly from age 5-6 by a friend of the family. He was 12. He was not physically rough with me, but I remember being tricked into thinking it was ok, then when I wanted it to stop, he convinced me we would both get in trouble, and I had to keep doing it. It was on a weekly basis for a year. I can still see his face, hear his words. I told my parents when I was six. He and his family dissapeared. I recently found out they did not press charges because he was abused as well.

Treatments

Talking Working / Worked

I did not speak of it again until I was 16. I think my dad thinks I forgot, I dont have the heart to tell him I remember. It has helped to talk about it. My mom and I make comments here and there, but never discuess it.

\"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked

Open Pregnancy After Loss/Infertility

I lost my son Jakob on sept 20 07 to a missdiagnosis at the military hospital. We have a law suite in progress now. My husband left for Iraq when I was 7.5 months pregnant and came home for Jakob's funeral when he was about 10 weeks old. The first and last time Jason held our son was at the funaral home. My Jakob's death was much like that of SIDS. We found him in the bassinet, lifeless. They catagorized it as SIDS until the report came in. I am now prego after 6 months of trying.

Open Chronic Pain

I have back problems. They started after I delivered my sweet Jakob. I have a protruding disc pushing on a bundle of nerves and a torn tendon. I am now pregnant again, praise God, and the pain has gottin worse...

Treatments

Acupressure Working / Worked

It was a great relief... Made me sleepy, and definately worked..

Heat Working / Worked

Oxycodone Working / Worked

It definately worked, but I was not told what I was taking was addictive... I was on it for about 5 months. I stopped taking it when I found out I was pregnant, that was a terrible week...

Physical Therapy Working / Worked

I am still finding out...

Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)

I have two children. My Angel Jakob who passed away at 9 weeks sept 20th 07, and Dylan who will arrive sometime late november early decemter

Treatments

Breast Feeding Somewhat Helpful

I tried to breast feed and not bottle feed my Jakob, but my mild didnt come in very well. So, we did both. It didnt matter how much I pumped and fed him, it would not come in better. I am hoping this time around I will be able to breast feed only.

Research Working / Worked

I have gottin more information from doing my own research than from Doctors. I know they are not all bad, but the ones I came in contace while Jakob was here were terrible. Made me feel I was wrong, and they knew everything. Their arrogance caused my son's death.

Open Pregnancy

I am pregnant with my second child. Baboy boy number two. I lost my sweet Jakob at 9 weeks old sept. 20th 07, you can find our story on my profile. Our Dylan is due dec. 13th. I am exited and terrified at the same time.

Open Health Care Reform

I lost my 9 week old son sept. 20th 07 at our home due to a non-diagnosis of three different docs. They never ran one test on him, just guessed allergies and sent me home, said I was a young worried mother.....I will NEVER listen to another doc over myself as long as I live.