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November 30, 2008 5:59pm
Today, I am at a completely healthy weight according to my doctors.....I feel sooooooooooooo big, I know I am so big. Everyone keeps comenting on how …
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LJay 
11:55pm, December 19, 2008
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About Me
LJay
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About Me
My Name is Laura. I am no longer a professional singer and dancer. I have finished school for hospital ward clerk but it is impossible to actually get a job.. I have struggled with my E.D from the age of 12, and it brought many other issues along with it. I just want to be happy and healthy!
My Name is Laura. I am no longer a professional singer and dancer. I have finished school for hospital ward clerk but it is impossible to actually get a job.. I have struggled with my E.D from the age of 12, and it brought many other issues along with it. I just want to be happy and healthy!
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Interests
I love to perform, especially to make people laugh, going on the computer, going out with friends, staying in with the love of my life(Neil xo), camping, road trips, movies, listeng to music...it gets me through so much, I LOVE my Ipod! I used to love art and writing but those things kind of went away when the ED completely took over!..I would love to start drawing again.
I love to perform, especially to make people laugh, going on the computer, going out with friends, staying
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UPDATE
September 29, 2008 6:41pm
Havent written forever!
Basically a quick and sad update for anyone who reads:
Neils dad passed away in June, Neil found him....He is being strong, I …
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Birthday
May 23, 2008 7:06pm
So,
24 years old today
Hooray
Hoorah,
I'm still in the same spot as I was 5 years ago.
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Journal Entry for May 8, 2008
May 8, 2008 6:17pm
nobody fucking cares
my poor family. how can i do this to them.I had a great childhood, great parents. Whay am I like this?My mom cries every …
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I LOVE MY NEW JOB
May 8, 2008 1:38pm
Job sucks....its telemarketing, but worse because its in person, not over the phone.
I HATE the idea of pressuring somebody into buying something …
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI have suffered with bulimia for about 12 years. I have been told that I am borderline anorexic because I am not considered average weight but underweight at many points. I've tried groups and have been admitted to hospital 3 times for extremely low potassium levels I am so tired of living this way but I can't seem to find anything that helps me. I just want to be healthy!
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- I attended Turning points last year, I found it helpful to talk to others, but I didn't get much else out of it. I am currently in the group "making Changes" Its pretty new, but I'm still skeptical about it helping me.
- Lexapro Not Working
- I was on 10mgs for 6 months, My doctor recently raised my dosage to 20 and now I'm getting pretty depressd again.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Residential Treatment Center Too Soon to Tell
- I am on a waiting list for a place called Homewood. I have already been waiting for a year and I am just waiting for their call. Looks like it will be about another year still. I hate not having insurance!
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Everyone in my life now knows about my bulimia, It was a great weight lifted off my chest,They love and try to support me as best they can, but they still don't understand it.I'm still alone.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIm sure my depression is a symptom of my eating disorder. I relly started to notice it about 2 years ago. I didn't want to do anything or talk to anyone. I was put on med that seemed to work at first, but now, its like I'm immune or something.UPDATE: I am actually more depressed than ever. I feel like Ill never be free. I don't know how much longer I can take it.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I just had to quit therapy because Im broke.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- upped to 350mg...not really working
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Its nice to get it out....
Open Self-Injury
I becan to cut when I was only in my teens, My family found out and I was able to stop for years. I didn't even think about doing it. Within the past 6 months I have started again, some times more severe then others and mostly when I have been drinking.
Open Food Addiction
I believe I am completely addicted to food. I can't stop once I start. When Im not eating all I can think about is when I am going to be able to eat. The thought of food litterally keeps me up at night.
Treatments
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Considering
- I can't seem to find it in my area and I am concerned about it's 12 steps that seem to revolve mostly around the power of GOD. I'm not into that.
