kellie81's Journal

STILL no cutting..it has been that long that I have lost count of the days all i know that the last time was march the 5th..I havent had the urge to or anything even when things have got really tough for me..and just lately they have..I keep getting convinced that my partner is going to leave me, I cry most nights about it and even though he reassures me that he won't I can't get the idea out of my head it is eating me up and I seriosly don't know what to do about it..we just don't seem to able to connect on an emotional level anymore, we go through the motions each day..look after the house, the kids, the animals, us, eat, sleep..but its like I want more I always seem to be wanting more, and it's confusing me