Journal

Ok, I'm a bit slow at writing.  I've always known that but as I think about my life today there are things I want to change and yet things that I wouldn't change for the world.  I have found a new freedom and a new happiness that can only come from God and the gifts of living a sober life!!  As I've looked at some of your personal goals I've realized that I've been working on a few myself as of late.  One of the things I need to do is start trusting myself again.  You'd think after 21 years of sobriety I would get that but  I'm a slow learner and I must consider I've spent all of my life dealing with these insecure feelings that will not change over night....some keep telling me progress not perfection.  So I'll trust what I'm told.

Goals in my life is to continue making an attempt to grow up. I'm told that my age at the point of sobriety will be the same as the age of when I took my first drink...so I'm 13 years and growing!

I love this life and today I can learn to be kind to myself.

HI All!

As I awoke this Christmas morning I realized tho being a single Mom the income maybe meager...there is so much to be grateful for!!  I've been sober since 5-5-86 and my children have never seen me take a drink...thank God!  How could someone who was the vilest sinner of all have such an abundant life????  I have realized that this peace only came when I gave up trying to control the situation and allowing God to work in my life.  God showed me the doors of AA and my sponsor and friends like you showed me how to live, through working the 12 steps.

I've had a good online friend who has shown me there is even more...so if your struggling with staying sober and your looking for peace that passes all understanding.....then you may want to consider God....he is the way out of this existence we called hell.

Today I'm excited about the up and coming new year...because today I have hope....I thank God and AA...God save me from demise and used AA to show me how to live.

Denise