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sobernfree 
7:13pm, May 11, 2009
JUST ANOTHER DAY,NOT MUCH NEED IN JOURNALING,THEY'RE ALL THE SAME.GETTING READY TO GO TO A MEETING,GOTTA PICK UP ANOTHER DRUNK TO TAKE WITH ME,HE HAS NO LICENSE.HIT THE CAPS LOCK AND WASN'T WATCHING.SELFISH ME,I'VE BEEN WISHING ALL DAY I WAS GOING TO PICK UP A DATE AND GO OUT.BUT THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.WHAT WOMAN IN HER RIGHT MIND WOULD GO OUT WITH AN ALKY?I'VE BEEN DOWN IN THE DUMPS ALL DAY,MAYBE A MEETING WILL HELP.GOD'S TIME,NOT MINE,I GUESS.
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Well my days get very samey too a lot of the time. I think alkies who have recovered are amazing people and not just because I happen to be an alky too!
People I know who are not alcoholic often recognise that we have experienced profound spiritual growth and done a lot of hard work on ourselves to be able to enjoy and endure life without the need to pick up again.
Do not be critical of who you are, in loving yourself in a healthy way you open up the pathway to others to love you as well.
Give Bob a big hug and enjoy what you do have right now. We have to understand that by experiencing a bit of pain sometimes, it enables us to appreciate the good things even more when they come along.
Gailly
down in the dumps indeed...and negative self talking too! Typical of us alkies, right? I do this too and have to be careful when I fall in to this trap. Your sobriety is an awesome achievement and you will find a woman who sees your great qualities. Remember, you have to see them first! Love and Respect, L.
InMyOwnSkin