I'm going to be happy
January 2, 2009 5:16am
I've decided that I'm going to be happy!
Progress
45 %
Current Weight (Lbs)
305
SadNJ
10:07pm, December 19, 2008
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About Me
SadNJ
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About Me
I'm a twenty something, single mother of two fighting against the world to raise my children with Godly standards and morals! I'm SLOWLY regaining my independance from a "situation" that was destroying me and my dreams. Putting the pieces of my shattered heart and dreams back together hasn't been the easiest, but God is good! And He's faithful until the end.
I'm a twenty something, single mother of two fighting against the world to raise my children with Godly standards and morals! I'm SLOWLY regaining my independance from a "situation" that was destroying me and my dreams. Putting the pieces of my shattered heart and dreams back together hasn't been the easiest, but God is good! And He's faithful until the end.
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Interests
Spending quality time with my children, reading books, photography, and internet shopping
Spending quality time with my children, reading books, photography, and internet shopping
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I hope your little one starts to feel better soon! It's actually not that bad as far as asthma goes at least once you get it under control. My inhalers last over a year b/c I use them so little.
I’m With You
Hello I'm in the same boat raising 2 children feeling like it's me against the world. It truly is hard but I feel I must keep my game face 24/7 so my children won't see my pain. I wish you all the luck and a happy 2009 it's the beginning of a new year and hope things work out for you.
Present
Merry Christmas to you. Here's a little present to boost your Spirit. Be prayerful and ask God to give you strength and direction. His plans for you are for good and not evil. If you trust Him with your whole heart, He WILL direct your path. But, the operative word here is trust. You have to be willing to follow His lead and trust that He knows what's best despite what you "think" is best for you. I hope love, joy, and peace great you on this great day!
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thanks..so do u have one of those 4 IM?
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionRough childhood. Miscommunication w/parents. Raped at 16. Many wrong relationships. "Great" guy at 23. We talked about marriage. When I got pregnant everything fell apart. Refusing to let go I've allowed him 2 drag me through hell. Got pregnant again. He left me! I went 6 months alone, then we got back "2gether". he left me in the hospital in labor alone. But we still live 2gether. How sick is that? He swears that we need to work it out!!!!! LOL LOL LOL Not possible, we both refuse to let go.
Treatments
Close Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)
My daughter was born in August of 2007! She's a joy! My goodness. She hardly cries, she smiles, and coos all day (even when she sleeps) which by the way is all night! She started at 5 and a half weeks!!! She's growing and learning everyday. She's a doll. The baby that every mother wishes for. (hopefully I'll still feel that way when she's 16!)
Treatments
- Attachment Parenting Not Working
- Even though it's not recommended, I co-slept with both of my children. I felt safer with them there. My son wakes in the middle of the night sometimes and gets in my bed still.
- Breast Feeding Working / Worked
- I breast fed until about eight weeks. After that, my body stopped making milk fast enough for the amount that she wanted so I started to suppliment. Gradually, I stopped the breast all together! I'm glad that I did it.
Open Breakups & Divorce
He and I were together for three yrs. Then we broke up, that left me with two children to raise alone. I'm so very angry, full of resentment. I'm unsure of how to left go! It's not healthy. I'm not sad about being alone, I'm in mourning over the lost of my relationship. Somewhere in the mix of the relationship, I lost sight of who I was and became someone else!
Treatments
- Forgiveness Considering
- But I'm WAY to angry right now. I know I need to let it go, but I can't. I'm trying though, one day at a time.
- Leave Not Working
- Everytime that I leave I always end up back with him. We are still living together now. Its sick.
- Music Not Working
- Every song either good or bad makes me think about him.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- They are sick of hearing about our drama
- Talking Not Working
- Only makes me more angry, because he won't be a "real man" and participate in our family.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Loved my body until I got pregnant with my son. I gained 87 pounds and I only lost 50. i have stretch marks from here to there now. Then I got pregnant with my daughter I gained 76 pounds. I have successfully lost 68 to date! I have a LONG way to go, but I'm chipping away slowly but surely. My body has been left in shambles though. LOTS of extra skin, that isn't snapping back the way that I hoped.
Treatments
- Counting Calories Working / Worked
- Curves Somewhat Helpful
- My kid's dad bought me a years membership. I went for a while, but I gave up and stop going. Complete waste of money
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- I've lost over 60 pounds
- LA Weight Loss Working / Worked
- The program actually works. The problem is if you don't eat the correct foods you won't lose!
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- I have a two year old and a three month old, that's all the exercise I need!!!!
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
My son was born in Oct 2005! He is stressful! Everything is no or y not. I'm having problems with correcting him. I hate to physically hit him but sometimes that's the only thing that he responds 2. It's tough. He REFUSES to potty train, LOL, he told me that he doesn't want 2 and he won't! He's a charmer, EVERYBODY falls for his smile and blinking eyes. STRONG-WILLED! I love him SO MUCH. He's a tough kid. He's very intelligent, sometimes catching me off guard with the things that he knows.
Treatments
- Attachment Parenting Not Working
- Since I stay at home, life is a little more stressful. Some of my "bad habits" are starting to rub off on him. Mainly the curse words. I can't stand it.
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- Trying on a daily basis, he pushes on a daily basis.
- Positive Reinforcement Working / Worked
- He loves praise. When he does something that he wants to be praised for he brings it to my attention. I don't mind praising him either
Open Seasonal Affective Disorder
I've always suffered horribly during the winter months! I think it's because it gets dark so early in the day! I'm a sunshine girl.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I am actually the aggressor in my relationship. I think that it is because I am so frustrated with dealing with him and his refusal to let me go! I've been physically trying to make him feel the way that he makes me feel emotionally! During our last arguement he put his hands on me, without just cause! And after all of the times that I abused him, he's never hit me and when he did I felt betrayed. And now I'm angry!
Treatments
Open Lactose Intolerance
My son is lactose. It became very pronouced around three months old. It got worse until diagnosed at 5 months. It's been rough, but it's getting better!
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- It's tough, because LOVES cheese, and everyday he chases the ice cream truck.
- Lactaid Working / Worked
- It allows him to have ceral (which he LOVES) in the morning and sometimes at night
Open Single Parenting
Like a fool, I ACTUALLY joined the parenthood ranks believing that I would have a partner for the duration! Umm... he had other plans unbeknown to me. How unfair huh? So now I'm a single mother of two wonderfully adorable children.
