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Batdog 
5:20pm, November 17, 2009
Lately i find that all of my responses seem harsh. Not just on DS, IRL too. I feel like I am a really unhappy person and that I am doing my best to spread that unhappiness to everyone I meet. I thought i was doing an ok job of hiding it. Then the other night I was on the phone with my Mom and she said she could hear in my voice that i was not happy. Leave it to Mom, right?
My bf asked me if I was feeling more depressed lately. I hadn't really thought abou t it. Actually I feel like I've just been more feeling nothing lately. I am going through the motions of life but there's so little life in me. Nothing seems to matter. Even if i lash out or get angry I feel like it's half-hearted. I give up the fight easily. I wish I cared enough to fight - at least that would be something.
I hate feeling like a big whiner. Or worse - a big nothing.
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Hey there....I dont mean to keep bothering you...at least I hope I am not....But I do understand where you are right now. The hopelessness...the feeling of "why bother"...the excisting instead of living like everyone around me is doing. For me..when I am like this..(as I am now)...I feel edgy...I am more annoyed by people..I get more snappy...just like some of the stuff you have mentioned above.
Its the depresstion monster... We know this...but we have to keep fighting it..and right now...its the one talking through you I believe. I may be off on this....But you still need to fight Batdog. You have it in you to be strong and to kick this thing in the ass!...and no...you are not a whiner!...Your having a bad time....it will turn around. Just keep fighting...keep moving..and dont let it take anymore of your life than it has. I as well as others here...will be right behind you struggling with this too. Stay strong. Big hugs...Haiku
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