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maudiej 
3:47pm, April 6, 2009
Well mom has got to the last stage.She is not able to do anything now.She cant talk plain and is now completly blind.She sits and hollers all the time or talks all the time.Its all about the babys dont hurt the babys.They still talk to her and them do to.I now have to restrain her at night and durning the day while in her wheel chair.She has picked at her chaird arms till them are just hanging on now.She was really bad today,couldnt walk or stand.She is on zanax now to keep her calm.But today was different,I thin she has went into the quiet stage which is the last stage.This is so hard to watch,she calls me momma and she says she is the baby.She told me the other night there where 2 angels one on each side of her,But she was just talking about angels and i ask if she saw them and where they where and she pointed to each side of her.I dont think it will be much longer now.Its heart breaking.I have thought of her gone but it still hurts more than i thought.Going to get me a cot and sit up in her bed i want to be with her if and when she passes.Keep us in your prayers.Hugss maudie
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Maudie...
You are always and always have been in my prayers, ever since I read your first journal page.
I know it must be very painful and sad to see someone you love suffer so, but you know it may very well be she saw those angels and there may come a time soon when she takes their hand and goes home to a loving Creator.
Once I was declared clinically dead and saw an angel much as you describe. She held out her hand to me and I touched her finger, but wasn't ready to leave. My daughter was much too young. If Heaven is anything like I experienced it is loving, peaceful and so beautiful thing with a feeling of truly going home. In sharing this, it is my hope to ease your mind somewhat.
God be with you and give you strength and peace. You are a beautiful soul and I am honored to have you in my life.
Much love,
Joni
jamsnjazzy
Oh Maudie, I hope God gives you strength to help your Mom through these last days. I'm glad she is quieter, because I know how hard it is to watch them struggle, picking at things and having to be restrained. That was how my dad was for a long time before he died. I know it sounds strange, but you and other caregivers will understand what I mean when I say, I was so relieved when he passed. He was no longer in suffering and turmoil. I could not grieve for a long time because I felt guilty for being relieved! I still miss him, but not the man tied to the wheelchair and restrained in the bed. God help you both, and give you wisdom and understanding to make this journey. Hugs & Prayers, Joy
zzzjoy
Thank you both very much for being me with me while i go though this.You are my strength,you both.Yes i hope she does past also,i know how you feel and how you thought.Today as me and my grand daughter got her in the tub and all clean we cried.After it was over we cried.We sat in there with her and cried to see her like this.It does hurt to watch a love one to turn into something like they do.Just be with me and hold my hand.I wish i could hold both you of as you go though your troubles.God bless you.Love maudie
maudiej
Hi Maudie, I have not been on here since last spring. I am so sorry to hear about your mom. I know what you are going through, as my husband died of Alzhiemer's also. I am praying for you. God give you the strength, and the wisdom to get through this awful time in your life. I am thinking of you and hoping you will let me hold your hand through this also. Just remember that there is a much better place for her when she leaves here, and she has already told you that the angels are there to guide her. God be with you, and yours...
SelinaM
Thank you Selina.Yes i would love for you to be here to hold my hand also while i hold mine out to you to confort you any way i can.Yes she will be in a much better place.Hugs and love maudie
maudiej