PaganChild's Journal

A couple of journals back, I made the statement that I understood why people commit suicide.... an understanding, for me, is a good thing, but I never intended that anyone who knows me well would think I would a) think it an honorable death, and b) would hate that Karma to face. My sincere apologies to any who had a worry thata that was a serious concern - I would never leave my Chloe and Gavin that way, much less my daughter, husband, sister... and all of you too.And besides, which of you thinks I am not a smart enough nurse to have it ruled natural causes - tsk, tsk! So no worries bout that,ok? If you hear I am gone, it will not be by my hand,k?

   I hear from Sarah today that she is ok today and"getting things done" whatever the **** that means. I just wish I were there to help her, hold her, let her cry and scream and kick the wall or whatevwer she and Gavin need. GG he needs so many hugs and kisses, and stories, toys, books, And I can't even send him paper and crayons... it makes me cry.

Ok, goin to bed now - I am tired, so, so tired. One piece of news - I am down to 123 lbs now - that is almost 70 pounds I have lost in 6 months - no,more like a year. And I eat at least once a day...sort of. Anyway, that's another 5 pounds this week alone, and I have hardly done more than Tweet and breathe - oh, follow me there and on Facebook too - cute new pic of Chloe up !

Blessings,

Star )O(