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lisamatt1990 
7:20pm, October 4, 2009
sounds so weird with the title,but it really feels that way.i am so down all the time,nothing really matters anymore.getting up in the morning is a struggle and i know mom would not want it this way,but thats how it feels and i do try to make it better,i just cant go on without her.she was my everything and i see some people who dont give a damn about their parents and yes i did give plenty of lip at times when i was younger,but i would give anything to bring her back.
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i'm sorry your having such a hard time with this...
i haven't experienced this yet, but i have been preparing myself for it...
we are all going to pass away...there is nothing we can do about that and there is no way to bring her back...
but you can keep her alive in your memories! Never forget the good times, or great times you had...
i learned to deal with death at a very early age...before i was 10, my grandpa, my dad, two uncles, and my grandma had all passed away...it wasn't easy...but it was a part of life...this june my mom turns 90...and i don't spend as much time as i should with her, but I make sure she's there for all the important stuff...so she can experience it and so that when that horrible day does come...I can celebrate her life, not mourn her death.
Your mom is at peace...let her rest in peace by keeping her alive in your memories...and celebrate her life...don't keep dwelling on her passing....
hope you feel better, soon.
-DR-
DepressedRecluse
I thought i was prepared. My mom always tried to prepare me talking about "When i'm gone" this and that but no one can tell you what that's like even if they,ve been through it till you go there yourself. It has been over 20 yrs for me now and i promise it gets better. It's just a real slow gradual process. But reading your entries i can see it happening for you even though you probably can't detect it happening for you yet yourself because you're to close still to the event and the healing is so gradual. Special occasions are especially hard for a longer time. But it does get better.
terrys
I'm sorry for your suffering.
Loved1
my heart goes out to you cos i know exactly how you feel in losing your mum you have lost a part of you.But i promise you things will get better pet.If you need to talk im here for you.
mind
I understand how you feel as for so long I have felt the same. Please get some help and maybe some meds. I wish I would have done that a lot sooner. It is too hard to get through this on your own. At least it was for me. You are in my prayers.
tmd1010