why me
October 21, 2009 9:12pm
my whole family is going to louisiana this weekend gator and fishing and i will be home alone. that makes me sad and no i do not want to go. any …
lisamatt1990
7:20pm, October 4, 2009
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About Me
lisamatt1990
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About Me
i am here to help myself .i am also suffering from depression and it has got a hold on me that just wont quit.i am currently on 225 mg of effexor xl, i feel like i dont have a life of my on. all support will be greatly appreciated. i have a very best friend and i try not to tell her all of my problems because she has a son who suffers form ocd and its so hard for her, so i try to always be there and help her through. she is so wonderful, her whole family is, its just ocd has them under lock and key and i dont get to see her much.I need her but her family has to come first. if i could have a wish, it would be that her son get the relief he needs so bad.I also have a 28 year old son who lives about 70 miles away from me, i miss him alot, but he has a lot going on in his life.i want him to be happy. i have been married for 18 years its just sometime i feel like a maid or a wardon. all i want is to be loved and appreciated.maybe to feel special every once in a while. i have a 17 year old daughter who i love and i worry about her she has made some bad choices. i just want the best for them and i am a mess and ugh.... now my mom has died on 7/29/08 so now i am all alone !As for my other interests I love csi miami, greys anatomy, McDreamy can operate on me anytime!Law And Order, Parental control.wheel of fortune, boston legal. romantic and comedies.I like daily strength, cause i can share my problems without being judged!I love hard rock music!I also need the support
i am here to help myself .i am also suffering from depression and it has got a hold on me that just wont quit.i am currently on 225 mg of effexor xl, i feel like i dont have a life of my on. all support will be greatly appreciated. i have a very best friend and i try not to tell her all of my problems because she has a son who suffers form ocd and its so hard for her, so i try to always be there and help her through. she is so wonderful, her whole family is, its just ocd has them under lock and key
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i love my animals so much. my prized possesion is my maltese poodle named trixie, i like music, funny shows and spending time with my best friends and there puppy king!My beautiful 17 year old daughter and 28 year old handsome son are heart and soul of my life and my puppy trixie too! If there not happy, I am not happy.Rock & Roll!! I hsve slso been married almost 18 years and we have really been through a lot.When i lost my daddy in 2000 it was the first family death i had experienced.It almost took me out and i turned to writing poetry about how i feel about him.
i love my animals so much. my prized possesion is my maltese poodle named trixie, i like music, funny
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October 21
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lisamatt1990 wrote a journal entry: why me 9:12pm
my whole family is going to louisiana this weekend gator and fishing and i will be home alone. that makes…
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lisamatt1990 changed their mood to Horrible 9:11pm
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October 4
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lisamatt1990 updated their status 7:20pm
my mom died july 29,2008.i died too! I hate life as it is.…
August 18
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lisamatt1990 turned 47 12:00am
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what to do when you never feel happy!!!!!
September 18, 2009 9:32pm
what do i do? I never feel happy always sad.most people laugh at jokes? not me. i very seldom laugh or enjoy anything ever. i am going to my …
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my treatments
August 28, 2009 1:12am
went to my therapist yesterday. i started off with 225 of effexxor and now they put me on abilify as well ,i started off at 2.5 mgs and then 5 mg, i …
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Bad day today
August 20, 2009 9:09pm
today was rotten and probably more of the same.hopefully not.I miss mom mom my dad my sister who went on vacation.
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I’m With You
buy some christmas gifts, write out you christmas cards,start planing the holidays, dinners, clean your house, paint a room, listen to music, be happy sweetie, you can, love bluebird
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Sometime this year, we taxpayers may again receive an Economic Stimulus payment.
This is a very exciting new program. I will explain it using the Q and A format:
Q. What is an Economic Stimulus payment?
A. It is money that the federal government will send to taxpayers.
Q. Where will the government get this money?
A. From taxpayers.
Q. So the government is giving me back my own money?
A. Only a smidgen.
Q. What is the purpose of this payment?
A. The plan is that you will use the money to purchase a high-definition TV set, thus stimulating the economy.
Q. But isn't that stimulating the economy of China ?
A. Shut up.
Below is some helpful advice on how to best help the US economy by spending your stimulus check wisely:
* If you spend the stimulus money at Wal-Mart, the money will go to China .
* If you spend it on gasoline, your money will go to the Arabs.
* If you purchase a computer, it will go to India .
* If you purchase fruit and vegetables, it will go to Mexico , Honduras and Guatemala .
* If you buy a car, it will go to Japan .
* If you purchase useless stuff, it will go to Taiwan .
* If you pay your credit cards off, or buy stock, it will go to management bonuses and they will hide it offshore.
Instead, keep the money in America by:
1 spending it at yard sales, or
2 going to hockey/ball games, or
3 spending it on prostitutes, or
4 beer or
5 tattoos.
(These are the only American businesses still operating in the US ..)
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I'm going to go to a ball game with a tattooed prostitute that I met at a yard sale, and drink beer! Just call me a patriot.
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thanks for you hug! I hope that you made it through your Moms birthday on the 12th. My Moms is also this month on the 30th. Thanks for your kind words and take care- Connie
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for 7 years now i have been on many different meds and nothing seems to work. i had a hysterectomy in 2006 at the age of 44 and it was a hard blow because of my 8lb fibroid tumor i had no choice. since then i have been on cymbalta wellbutin zoloft prozac lexapro and currently effexor xl 150 mg. my i feel like i am lost and have no desire to do anything. my dad died in 2000 and my friend died in feb 2007 and my brother in feb 2007, my uncle in oct of 2007,my husband had a seizure in may 2007
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- made me sick
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- i feel some better,still feel like im missing something,very unhappy
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- made me feel violent
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- worked but only helped mood not depression
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- nothing at all
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- it helps to have someone to talk to
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- made me feel like i was going out of my mind
- Zoloft Not Working
- made me feel uneasy
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- making it one day at a time, feel all alone and lost. like everyone and everything ispassing me by
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- i am currently on 150 mg of this and i still dont know if its helping, i feel like i never have any good days.
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I am joining this community to support and encourage my very best friends.
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