rmb's Journal

I went for my first visit with my new PCP today.  He’s an internist like my last PCP was but in personality and style, they couldn’t be more different.  I think we are going to have a good relationship.  He seems to have more of a partnership philosophy.  And being on warfarin for life, I need to work with someone who's not going to be put out by the fact that I need his staff's help with managing the dosage.    He’s already outlined his plan for managing my warfarin and how his staff works with warfarin patients.  Sounds like it won’t be so chaotic and hectic as it is with my old PCP and her office.  I have my INR tested weekly so I'd have to call there every week and it just started to feel really depressing .  They would get frustrated with me when my INR wasn’t where it should be and they’d accuse me of not being compliant with doctor’s orders.  Boy did that irk me.  Because if anyone is compliant with my warfarin and with keeping track of my INR and dosages, it’s me.  I’ve become a bit of a control freak about it.  They also didn’t like it when I’d question something or ask for more info.  They’d just say that it’s what the doctor said and that they have to trust it.  What a bunch of bullshit.  It’s my body and I’ll question whatever I want.    

I am relieved to have taken control over the situation and to put an end to what I consider to be just not a good patient /doctor fit.  I actually feel lighter, like some weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  Seriously, it was like having a bad boyfriend who didn’t treat me well and yet, I kept coming back for more. 

It’s funny how weird you feel about breaking up with your doctor.  But after meeting the new doc, I am certain that this was a good choice.  And besides, unlike my old doc, he didn’t roll his eyes at me when I asked him questions.   Man, she really was an asshole.