Journal

A few weeks ago, my husband and I were driving on the highway, about 30 miles from the city of Milwaukee.  It was a quiet day on a pretty stretch of highway, sunny, not a lot of traffic.  A blue heron flies across the road, in direct line with our windshield.  It was so close you could see its feathers, its eye.  It looked prehistoric, Pterodactyl  like.  Actually, it looked like a jet coming in for a landing.   It took our breath away for a moment. I love that I'm with him at these moments, so that we can file it in our shared memories, so that when we are old and sick or our minds are starting to fail, one of us can say to the other, do you remember that time the blue heron flew across the road right before our eyes? 

We went to Madison over the weekend. Every year, we spend one day/night there, taking in the campus and the capitol.  It's such a great college town and I feel its energy warm within me.  I feel young and beautiful and energetic, with the world ahead, like the students feel.   Like I remember feeling when I was 20.    Sunday on the way home, hung over in the passenger seat from one too many martinis and glasses of wine, I squint at the shafts light coming through the hazy clouds.  The cut corn fields, the hills, all looked golden and fuzzy, lit like a dream..  The geese were in perfect formation over head, flying with purpose and intent.  It reminds me of how I lose my way sometimes, restless and fussing and fighting, over who knows what, over anything sometimes.   

I need to fly with more purpose and intent. 

Nature is always right.   

Ok, I just need to brag:

My INR has been between 2-3 since June 29th.  I've been testing every 30 days ever since. 

I would have never thought I could achieve this considering the many months it  took to get therapuetic, the constant testing every week or two and even sometimes every 3-4 days and the  ever changing warfarin dosages for the last year and a half.  Nice to be in a sweet spot for a bit.

So, with that said, I proclaim that I am a goddess among mere mortals.   Well, at least for the time being.  My INR level could all go to hell at any time.  But for now,  I rule.