Journal Entry for September 9, 2009
WOW...IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE HAD A GREEN FACE UP HERE...BUT I ACTUALLY FEEL GOOD NOW A DAYS....
LETS SEE,WHERE TO START...2 …
Bipolar, Alchoholic&Recovering Drug Addict. I gave up my two wonderful boys due to this ilness and my addictions.
Bipolar, Alchoholic&Recovering Drug Addict. I gave up my two wonderful boys due to this ilness and my addictions.
Not alot to say except NASCAR
Not alot to say except NASCAR
WOW...IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE HAD A GREEN FACE UP HERE...BUT I ACTUALLY FEEL GOOD NOW A DAYS....
LETS SEE,WHERE TO START...2 …
HE MET AN ALCOHOLIC...HE FEEL IN LOVE WITH AN ALCOHLIC...WHAT MAKES HIM THINK I CAN CHANGE...HELL, WHAT MAKES HIM THINK I WANT TO CHANGE....
THINGS …
TODAY IS A BIG EMOTIONAL DAY FOR ME...GOING TO LUNCH WITH ME SIS & MOM...I HAVEN'T SEEN THEM IN OVER 2 YEARS AND I'M SCARED...SO SCARED …
I HAVEN'T WRITTEN IN A LONG LONG TIME BUT TODAY I NEED TO VENT...
THE MOTHER FUCKER MADE EVERYONE BELIEVE I WAS ABUSIED BY SOMEONE …
THOUGHT I HAD GOTTEN PAST THE PAIN...GUESS I WAS WRONG...
THE LITTLE GUYS BIRTHDAY IS TODAY...14 YEARS OLD...MY BABY IS GROWING UP...
THIS …
Hey girlfriend. It's been way too long. Sorry to hear you are home sick. I had that nasty bug a few weeks ago. I hope you can manage to have a good day. Please take care of yourself. ((Hugs))
Hey Girlfriend, guess who???
I am doing much better now thanks. Had a hell of a sad day and glad it's over.
Hey honey. How you doing?
Thanks Robin :)
At the age 12 I first tried suicide. My family didn't react. Being overweight and made fun everyday I developed an eating disorder. I struggled with my weight for a few years until they finally realized at the age of 17 there was a probem. After being hospitalize for starving myself to death my dad step in and got me help. First I was diagnosed as manic-depressive than years later I was diagnosed being Biopolar. Alot has happened since then.
Growing up an overweight girl with a skinny, beautiful sister is where my problems started. All of my family, except my daddy; made me feel ashamed of who I was. At the age of 12 is when I started upchucking which in time,the age 14; I just stopped eating totally. By the age of 17 I was only 73lbs and nearly dead. I did get the help then, thanks to my daddy. But I have always had a tendency to going back to upchucking. Since I lost my daddy in 2000 it's just gotten worse.