Journal Entry for November 22, 2009
November 22, 2009 1:00pm
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About Me
sqwidge
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About Me
Hi im married to a great guy hes my bestfriend, soulmate and my rock.We have five children which keep us very busy.I like the colour blue, and walking along the beach.I like wild flowers, and playing with my dog Roxy.I also enjoy poetry in small amounts as i dont have alot of spare time.I would like to learn to play the guitar, when i can as well.I wonted to join this site to talk to new poeple and make friends with poeple that have deppresion etc like myself, i have had it for sometime.
Hi im married to a great guy hes my bestfriend, soulmate and my rock.We have five children which keep us very busy.I like the colour blue, and walking along the beach.I like wild flowers, and playing with my dog Roxy.I also enjoy poetry in small amounts as i dont have alot of spare time.I would like to learn to play the guitar, when i can as well.I wonted to join this site to talk to new poeple and make friends with poeple that have deppresion etc like myself, i have had it for sometime.
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Interests
My children, reading poems when i get the time.Im hopeing to try to improve our lives big time this year by doing the house up, just decorateing etc, i enjoy painting but have not done any for a while.My five children keep me bissy and i wont to be able to do more fun things with them.I need to do some more things for me this year make friends and spend more time with the ones i already have, and spend more time on this site.And i love the sea, beach and the sound of the waves i can relax there.I would like to come to terms with my depression to learn to life with it instead of fighting it maybe than i can get my life back.I have also started to look into garderning abit.And i love my dog and should spend more time with her she helps me agreat deal with my depression.
My children, reading poems when i get the time.Im hopeing to try to improve our lives big time this year
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The Depression with in.
November 18, 2009 7:08pm
Don't look down you might fall in, no one wont's to go where i have been, darkness grows with in you still, climbing torn until you are …
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This week has been crazy i should be resting i hurt so much.
November 13, 2009 6:43pm
This weeks been a bit mad i have had allot to do and I've done to much and my health has suffered as a result i knew that i was doing to much but …
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What next.
October 18, 2009 7:44am
David had a car crash saturday morning but thank god hes ok, it was a small crash but we are waiting to hear if the car is a right …
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Hi
October 11, 2009 4:07pm
I just wonted to say hi to all my friends alot of which i have yet to say hi too.Im sorry i have not been in touch as i have been really bissy and it …
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Prayer
I asked God to watch over you. I asked Him to hold you in his loving arms, and keep you safe from all harm. I asked Him to guide you with his light and stay beside you through the night. I asked Him to take away your sorrow, and help you find your dreams tomorrow. I asked Him to fill you with hope as you begin each new day and to send many blessings your way~Love, Maria
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YAY 100th hug, I hope you are well, im not doing too bad, uni is going ok thanks. BIG HUGS....here for you always, you know you can message me anytime.....
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionHi i have had postnatal depression three times and recovered well. It was hard,and it had taken a whole.But at the moment i have a differant kind of depression i have had it for eight years this time i am finding it really hard.I dont think i have ever been in such a dark,lonely,place, friends move on or dont understand.I have changed as a person so much and dont see the world or myself in the same way anymore.All i see is black theirs no colour anymore.
Treatments
- Dosulepin Somewhat Helpful
- I find this treatment has been great in the pastbut the treatment for me this time is not working as well as it did.I am on 75mgs x4 a day the highest dose i can take.Side effects dry mouthand i have been very drowsy on this high dose.Good in the past and worked not so good now.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Works sometimes depending on how bad i am at the time and if the kids are in or out of the house.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I think this can help, but for me this time the depression is to bad.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- It sometimes helps to write things down and get some advice from friends.
Close Parents of Children with ADHD
My six yr old son has ADHD we had it confirmed about two wks ago,its been really hard,Buddy also has learning problems but it has taken me a while to get anyone to sit up and take notice until he was haveing problems at school.And i asked to speak to a woman that helps children like Buddy,and we got the ball rolling,Buddy was refered to a g.p.and from their to the hospital we are waiting on some test results to come back.He can mess up a room in seconds,and melt your heart with his smile.
Open Insomnia
I have depression & insomnia,long after friends have gone to sleep im still awake and find it hard to get through the night on my own i have had it for a while but i think it started because i was haveing nightmares and i didnt wont to sleep but the depression plays a big part in it too.
Treatments
- Meditation Considering
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- it works sometimes it depends on the time of day or night or how scared i feel.No side effects.
- Nitrazepam Somewhat Helpful
- I have 1-2 tabs a night but have only used twice 1 tab a time as i was not sure how they would go with the high dose of antidepressants im on.I still have 8 tabs left that i have not had as yet.I did not notice any side effects but i did not take long enough and only had taken one at a time.Dose 5mg x1
Open Arthritis
I have just found out that i have arthritis but we that is the gp is not sure what type as yet and i have been refered to a specialist my xrays are ok but my blood tests came back with some results hes not pleased with im already on meds for the inflammation but i have not found a good enough pain killer yet.To say it is very painful is a big understatement i have pain in all my joints, and i feel very issolated i would love to hear from anyone else that has this what ever their age.
Open Loneliness
Sometimes you can have friends and family around and still feel alone because you don't wont to tell anyone how bad you really feel so sometimes you are alone...and sometimes its because you try to protect others on here because they mean so much to you and you just wont to be here for them.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
i have bad nightmares, and see things when i know that they cant be their I'm not crazy, but feel really scared and alone can anyone help is this normal I've been through allot and I'm really scared to sleep sometimes.I also find making friends hard as I'm not confident , I'm shy, and if I'm honest find it hard to be around people in case i get hurt in some way.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- i use music to relax to which helps me a great deal.BUT i need tobe in the right mood and have my five children not in the house they have to be at school or the older two at their on flats.
