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suzannelin 
11:58am
What a stressful few weeks. I thought once I got that ever elusive BFP all would be rainbows and sunshine. Well, maybe when I saw the first u/s, or saw the heart beat???
To sum it all up, morning sickness has been a bear, which would be just fine by me if 1) I weren't here all alone for the past 3 weeks (Jeff is STILL away) and 2) if a few people at work weren't taking offense to my morning sickness and complaining regularly about it and making snide comments to me.
I have been struggling my way into work most days now, but the other morning I nearly broke when I was up from 4:30-7:30 am reenacting a particularly ugly scene from The Exorcist. I called work in a panic. Was I sick, sick, having a particularly bad case of morning sickness, or stressed out beyond reason? When my husband called to check in on me, as he does most mornings before I go to work (so sweet, he gets up at 5 am to do this) I just cried and cried for an hour. I realized I was no longer puking so I ate some dry toast and, after keeping it down for 20 minutes, I soldiered on.
This morning I woke up and noticed some spotting. I was sure it was probably nothing to worry about. But everything I read said to notify the doctor if there is any kind of bleeding or spotting. So I called into work and kept me feet up until the doctor's office was opened. The nurse was phenomenal. She alleviated my worries, both about being a neurotic and high-maintenance patient, and about the bleeding. After a few questions she told me to rest and sit tight and she would speak to the doctor as soon as she arrived. I imagine she DID speak to the doctor as soon as she arrived because about 20 minutes later they called back. I should monitor the bleeding and call if it gets any heavier at all, or if there is any bad cramping. Meanwhile they want me to come in for a Rhogam shot due to my blood type, since we don't know Jeff's yet. He can't ever run anywhere for a test because he's flying home today (YAY!) but of course his flight takes him through Denver, in the middle of a snow storm. (of course)
Well, I will not get to see the baby today and will have to wait until Monday for my official appointment.
And of course when I spoke to my boss today her words to me were, "Make sure you get that FMLA paperwork signed today." Sure because that is what is the foremost importance in my list of worries today!
I guess my point is once you finally achieve that pregnancy the worries don't just magically vanish. I am sure there will be lots of things to keep stressing about throughout the pregnancy and as my child grows. I just need to make sure I always recognize the joy of this blessing despite the obstacles that may come.
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Unfortunately - the door has opened to a whole new set of worries for us! I just said to my DH the other night that we spent so much time worrying about GETTING pregnant, that we forgot all about the worry associated with STAYING pregnant! The best advice I have received is to just take the pregnancy one day at a time...that is what I am doing and it seems to be working.
I hope the spotting is nothing more than an isolated incident. I know how worried you must be...I will say a prayer that it is nothing at all except a minor annoyance. Keep us posted...thinking of you!!!
Jenn17
I can really relate to this entry. I know exactly how you feel. I thought that after getting pregnant...I could sit back and enjoy the pregnancy, but this morning sickness is a BEAST!!!! You just want it to go away and it never quits. I almost got mad the other day I was so sick...I just wanted it to stop. I know that if we can make it through this we will get our blessing in the end. Hang on and be strong. Hopefully your husband being back will make you feel a little better. Take care.
Ginger1
Poor Suzanne! Being sick all the time, have crappy coworkers, & now the spotting!!! I so wish that Karma or what ever was kind to those of us that struggle so hard to get here & would let us have those wonderful worry free blissful pregnancies.... no such luck huh?
You take care of yourself & that little baby all the rest will work itself out!!! Much love & lots of prayers!!! XOXO
Jcurly
Hope you are feeling a bit better and you're keeping your feet up. I had the same thing through much of my pregnancy and I was told I just had an irritated cervix. As you know, Rhiannon turned 1 year old in July, so things have a way of stressing us out, but in the end, they work out.
As far as worry, I think I was the same way. Worrying about getting pregnant, then staying pregnant and then it intensifies even more when you have the baby. Women are not given enough credit for all that they do! You take care of yourself, get the FMLA forms filled out (trust me, it will relieve you some). Glad hubby is coming home!
PAMMILL
xoxoxoxo... So nice to hear you prego-talk :). I actually am very sorry you have been alone the past 3 weeks. That's got to be rough. Your Jeff is a sweetheart to call you every day :). Hang in there, Suzanne. You are entitled to a little healthy worry. Everything will work out just fine though. ;)
jptobe
Oh Suzanne!! If anything I will repeat the words of Dr. Albert on the day of my second ultrasound, when I complained that I was turning into a total basket case after learning that I was pregnant (no m/s at this point, no bleeding, nothing!!!).
- Honey, that will never go away. You will be afraid all throughout the pregnancy and you think all is going to be well once the baby arrives, and then it arrives and you start having all sort of new and different worries. That is something that will NEVER go away!!. And how wise she was!!
Pregnancy is the weirdest and most wonderful thing that I've ever gotten to experience, but also the scariest!! Do whatever is best for you to calm your fears, be it call the doctor 20 times (that's what they are there for!), call a friend and ask the silliest of questions, your Mom, your SILs, whomever, you feel comfortable asking and trust enough to calm you down.
aecollins
Suzanne--I do completely understand. I thought the nerves were terrible enough just going through IVF. Now that I'm pregnant, I'm worried every day. Especially since I've had spotting several times too. From what I've learned, it's more common than you would think. As long as it's not super heavy and you're not cramping, it's usually okay. But I would always call the doctor just to make sure they are aware-- which you did. Hang in there, girl!
ddaw
Oh my poor girl!!! Can you ask the dr about medications for that nasty nausea???
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Mamamando
I remember asking the same question last year when I was in your shoes. I thought the same thing, once you get pregnant, you can finally relax, but I think it got so much more worse for me once I was pregnant. Then I too thought once the baby is born I can finally relax and again, I was wrong. You worry about everything once they are born. Are they eating enough, breathing okay, developing properly. I guess being a mom is all about being the one who gets to worry the most! Try to remain calm and good thing you called your doctor about the spotting. I spotted for my first 10 weeks of pregnancy and some days it wasn't just mild spotting but bleeding. Talk about a cruel way for our bodies to play with our minds! But I got through everything just fine, despite all the worry - will the baby be okay due to all my worrying?? She is fine but now my new worry is that she isn't crawling yet. Is she developing properly? See the worrying never does end! Hang in there and take care of yourself!!!
snckers