its strange how i feel atm almost …
its strange how i feel atm almost a total numbness to the world... i did not realise how bad it had gotten until last …
The night before my birthday i went to a pit party. Seeing as it was going to be my birthay at
12:01 i wanted to go out and party.
this guy was calling me down, and i was drunk and didn't want to take it anymore, so i started to
look for him. I found him and punched him in the face twice. Earlier in the night, I was sticking up
for a friend, she was getting surrounded by like twenty people who were trying to beat her up.
had to flip out, and it was already really dramamtic before the punches.Back to the punches, so
basically he said he was fine with it, to all his guy friends, But to a friend of his thats a girl he told
her if he wasn't drunk he would have cried. So i'm just feeling really bad about that.
Day of my actual birthday:
I wake up a bit hungover, so i just want to sleep and then go home.
My mom decided seeing as its a nice day, that she is going to spend the day with her boyfriend
of 7 years, who i hate and who threatins to hurt her all the time and go fishing. My sisiter came
and got me at 4 in the aft. after spending all day crying and being mad at my mom mom for
not spending the day with me. I know it sounds like a stuck up bitch, but sorry.
Spring Fling:
Tonight = DHS spring fling.
I go, get high before, get into the dance and almost not make it through because the principle is
looking for me. SO i wander around there dancing and stuff with pasties and i'm practically
dying. But i'm having a good time, trying to hide from the vp. There is so much in the middle
like a surprise fire alarm in the middle, and running around with no shoes in the stones hurting
my feet, so i go stand on the sidewalk infront of the guy i hit's vihicle. so he starts yelling
infront of at least 200 people get that retard away from my van, and all this shit. starts calling
me down. and i'm freaking out, the fire truck shows up, so we think the fire is real. lots of
friends got caught for doing tabs, and i left really really early because i was freaking out and
really baked, so i had to run around borrowing things so i didn't look done, got my mom to
come get me, had a nervous break down, i'm staying home from school tomorrow, because
not only the boy who i hit, but a bunch of other people were making fun of me for hitting, that
guy and shit like that. its crazy, he said he was fine. Anyways my mom is leaving for the
weekend and i'm suppossed to be going to a bunch of parties but now i'm staying home with
my sister, which will be good. Thats the last 6 days in a a very very very tiny nutshells those
are the highlights, there is everything and more in the middle.
:( can i just be the memorium page in the back of the yearbook?
its strange how i feel atm almost a total numbness to the world... i did not realise how bad it had gotten until last …
man its my birthday 2day and im actually having a good day was just at a mates house drinking and when the clock struck …
i dunno how to explane the last few week they have been good but some fucked up stuff has happened my ex started …
those aren't even all the highlights. i wish it was tho
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