Eve3

About Me

Bipolar chat website: Daily Strength Support Profile Feeling: Better than when I wrote the last depressing profile, so I guess I better update! Gender: Female. Age: getting older but hanging in. LOVE art, books, writing, nature, painting, classical music. Anything that takes me a long way from the ugliness in this world, even if only for a time! (I wrote previously: "I think heaven must have a Starbucks on every corner, since I am addicted to coffee.") I just kickced the Starbucks addiction, which is a good thing, because my body cannot tolerate it! I've been trying to get off Starbucks' coffee, since Starbucks first opened years ago! I have a lot of depression, so I self-medicate with coffee (lots of caffeine). Bet I am not alone there! Still say this is true, depressed or not: I wrote previously ("Have seen more evil out of people than a body can rightly stand.") Scars run deep! I'm a survivor. Bipolar I disorder, cannot take any psych. meds, but klonipin and a 10mg. Prozac daily PRN, less is definitely better. Anti-depressants make me very manic! Cannot take mood stabilizer, severe reactions, allergic reactions, and also have lymphedema in my leg, which rules out lithium, the most effective drug. And it's OUT, can't take it. My leg fills up with 15 pounds of fluid and causes serious problems. Hospitalized for bipolar disorder in my mid-twenties. And recently again, for less than twenty-four hours. Got very down, mixed state, moods swinging. Stabilized now more or less now. Hope it stays that way, will do my very best to make it so! I paint and write. Have a master's degree, almost two master's degrees, not that it matters much. Currently writing my memoir. Painting a large 3-D wall mural. Love to read when I can concentrate. I am slightly dyslexic (doesn't affect my reading, though it did as a child.) It does affect my spelling. I have two grown children, one of whom is very difficult. She has nascissitc personality disorder. Believe it is so fun to have to deal with her. Of course, I love her but she is so difficult. My son is busy living his own life, and frankly I need his help. His help is not forth coming. They are young yet. Old enough to know better, do better, but such is not the case. One can hope for the future! My husband is unipolar, with lots of aggression. We are working, and getting somewhere, in therapy. Sometimes we are sometimes not. Lately, mostly not. I cannot tolerate his irrational temper! His irrational stubborness. He does not seem like the man I married. This last year has been helll living with him. I have a sister, the doctor, who wouldn't throw a life preserver to you if you were drowning, but, hey, who wants to be maudlin. I come from an extremely dysfunctional family (of origin). My parrots and my big dumb dog are far more soulful, faithful, giving, and loving than many of the people I know. Especially my family. I have a garden I love! Three adorable parrots I love! Sometimes I miss my old loves, who were much sweeter, kinder, more mature, and certainly more controlled. I think of them the more my husband continues to act out. Difficult though, just difficult to think on it. Life with all it's hardships, the pain, mental, and physical, still has promise and offers possibilities. Eve

Bipolar chat website: Daily Strength Support Profile Feeling: Better than when I wrote the last depressing profile, so I guess I better update! Gender: Female. Age: getting older but hanging in. LOVE art, books, writing, nature, painting, classical music. Anything that takes me a long way from the ugliness in this world, even if only for a time! (I wrote previously: "I think heaven must have a Starbucks on every corner, since I am addicted to coffee.") I just kickced the Starbucks addiction, which