noturaverage's Journal

I went to 8am mass today.I had been feeling on a low, and not too great about myself.I just felt that if I prayed with other's and shared the word of our saviour, that I would feel better.

I shared  public prayer of strength and courage. As march the 22nd get's nearer, I'm freaking out a little about being baptised as a catholic. The unknown scares me and i question myself if this is the right thing/path in my life.

I am doing some giving back to speak next week. I shall be helping out at our goodwill store, and doing furniture deliveries to the needy. I always believe in helping others as well as myself.

Even though I'm keeping myself as busy as possible, I still feel like something is missing, but i cannot pin point it. I guess its the fact that I am running from dealing with my past again.

I do need to get this all out, but mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.......................

Why is it like I feel that I have come so far with my counseling but as it becomes more difficult, I cant take the pain......................

The pain I am feeling is unexplainable, but i am sure many out there experience the same thing.

Take care all.

Hugs..........................

God bless.

He is the light that overpowers darkness.