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Tobias20 
9:17pm, May 14, 2009
Sorry to my friends, I read your concerned messages
I haven't been online because I have found another outlet for my issues
I hope all my friends here are well :)
Tobias
UPDATED GOALS
Feel happy
Progress 65%
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Graduate with a 2.1
Progress 25%
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Budget! Stop Spending!
Progress 25%
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So I'm well and truely back at uni... and I have missed 6 classes already. It's just malaise... I'm ready to leave the house at 8am and I just get back in to bed.. I have no priorites. I feel I'm gonna have to tell my teachers about it, but I REFUSE to lose another year. I HAVE to graduate. I still haven't got my loan sorted, malaise again, so I need to get my rent off of my social worker, boo. Anyway, enough about that... I had my counts this week. My CD count has dropped from over 900 to 500ish... which I was told isn't anything to worry about as the accuracy of the test allows for such huge drops... whatever. Anyway the great news is my viral load has gone from almost 2000 to around 200!! This made me more optimistic. I am worried about a few things though, like I need a dentist because I have liek 10 caries I swear.. I was too depressed to care about a dentist over the past 3 years so now I'm getting worried and I can't get one. I also know I need a crown fitted which costs a fortune so I'll have to wait, argh!! I guess being worried means my depression is leaving.. yes? I hope so. I stopped taking my meds because I was so apathetic, and now all this worry and distress is seeping in.. but I can cry!! I haven' cried for a long time. I'll update more often now, sorry for the gap!
RE: my goals. I worked out I need to lower my cholseterol intake. My level is 5.4 which is bad.. so no ice cream, no pizza etc for me! I'll see how that helps my weight
Secondly... I live off a budget of £80 a week now and it works! So I can update that goal.
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Return 2 my normal weight
Progress 40%
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Budget! Stop Spending!
Progress 10%
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I'm so pissed right now... I baked some cornbread, and went to the shop to buy myself some orange juice. I got back, took out and sliced the cornbread, and put the orange juice on the counter. Then I noticed I needed to take the trash out, so I did it.. but because it's collection day the skips were down the other end of the development, so I took the trash there. When I got back in, I was so shocked to find that two slices of the cornbread had gone, and then I saw my housemate walking out of her room drinking my juice from the bottle!!!!!!! I was so annoyed and shouted at her... she'd taken the cornbread before I'd even had any myself, I would have offered her some, but she didn't wait. Also, I bought that juice because I have a cold and she'd drunk like 1/3 of the bottle.. also without asking! So I grabbed the bottle from her hands, picked up the cornbread and went to my room.. when she knocked I ignored it, and she walked in. So I told her off again for walking in without asking and that she needs to ask before she does things. I almost told her off about leaving dirty underwear all over the house, but I know that'd hurt her feelings. Oh my God, why can't I ever live with people who don't make me want to scream! I was having a good day until this! Grr.
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I have a brother who does the same shit. I made brownies yesterday, went upstairs to get my water from the freezer, and when I returned, two pieces were missing. I found his dopey ass outside on the porch, on MY phone, eating my food. I would do the same to him; eat his food to get back at him, but he has none, what with him not having a job and all. I feel your pain.
If you want to be mature about it, have a one-on-one chat with her and tell her that she needs to stop taking your things. But, if you're anything like me, You're planning on putting salt in her tea, or something cruel like that:-) If you must, get your own frig and put a lock on it. She'll get it then.
By the way, you eat cornbread? Sweet!!
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It was good that you were able to vocalize your frustration instead of stuffing it inside. It is so very hard to live withanother. It is constant learning process
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I heard some great progress in your entry. I alwys cry!! It makes me feel so much better to release the tears. I am hoping things with school will be successful!! I am sending HUGE hugs and peace and comfort to you friend!!
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