Journal Entry for January 25, 2008
January 25, 2008 11:28am
I'm going through a lot right now. When am I not.....actually. I got all my bloodwork and urine tox screen done this morning, for the …
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sarrah345
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sarrah345
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About Me
I had gastric bypass surgery 9 months ago, and I have lost 150 pounds to date. I have severe anxiety, depression and obsessive/compulsive behaviors. I shop compusively and impulsively....I used to eat compulsively before my surgery, and I'm really struggling to try to remain in control. I have had chronic pain for the last 7 years....I've tried practically every drug to help with it. My pain mgmt doc is a great doctor but I really need something to help me, because I have new nerve pain and head/face pain. I just had bilateral occipital nerve blocks a couple of weeks ago or so, and they helped a bit but now the pain is back and my anxiety level is really high! The nerve pain is awful, and the pain doc changed the frequency of my Percocet for today and the weekend. I see him first thing Monday and I really need him to help me! I know I sound like I'm a drug seeker, but I'm not. I just want SOMETHING to help me with this pain...
I had gastric bypass surgery 9 months ago, and I have lost 150 pounds to date. I have severe anxiety, depression and obsessive/compulsive behaviors. I shop compusively and impulsively....I used to eat compulsively before my surgery, and I'm really struggling to try to remain in control. I have had chronic pain for the last 7 years....I've tried practically every drug to help with it. My pain mgmt doc is a great doctor but I really need something to help me, because I have new nerve pain and head/face
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Journal Entry for January 22, 2008
January 22, 2008 8:02am
Still eating "bad" food, but enough to make me sick (vomit). I ate some chocolate candy in secret and fast......it gave diarrhea to …
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Journal Entry for January 16, 2008
January 16, 2008 10:50am
Again I am here, with so much to say. I did my first "official" bullmic behavior last night. I ate peanuts and Reese's …
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Journal Entry for January 4, 2008
January 4, 2008 8:17am
Well, this journal entry is way long overdue and I have to start somewhere, right? At first, I was going to hand-write out a journal....but I …
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I'm so proud of you! Isn't it so freeing to tell people! This is a great way to recovery. All parents feel that they are responsible when they see their children go through anything. Just assure her that this is something that is something that is yours and that you don't know what led you to go to food.
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Try to feel that with everyday that is given to you so does a new start. Today can be better if you, before the urge sneaks up, take that deep breathe and recite to yourself what you really want for the day. Baby steps. You have support from us. When you feel like your world is getting a little gray, turn to one of us and perhaps some sunshine seeps through!
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You are in the right spot. Eating disorders are not defined by age, it's just that younger people are typically more willing to seek out support. Kudos to you for joining! Remember that we are all here to support you, and I am sending you happy thoughts. You're going to get through this.
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Close Shopping Addiction
I have anxiety, depression and obsessive/compulsive behaviors. I shop compusively and I used to eat compulsively. I'm really struggling to remain in control. Today (10/31/07) I deviated from my surgeon's diet rules! I ate sugar and I feel so guilty about it! MyI have anxiety, depresseion and shame over it, I hide what I buy, from my husband. I'm so scared!!!! I feel like everything has spiraled out of control! I'm having physical symptoms (headaches) for the last week because of the stress.
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- The only way I can explain is that I feel like my brother who is an addict feels...shame, alone, out of control, like a bad person. I see a psychologist and a psychiatrist both, but neither one know of my recent (2 months ago) "slip" back into my "old" behaviors. Now I feel so ashamed and horrible about what I've been doing. I don't know what to do! I been taking Paxil, for 13 years, and I take Xanax for something else unrelated to this, and it doesn't help my anxiety anyway....
Close Food Addiction
I used to compulsively overeat. I had Gastric Bypass surgery 9 months ago and I've lost 150 pounds to date. But today I faltered by eating candy today, and I didn't care if it made me sick! I'm so scared, and I've been perfect with "the rules" up until today.
Treatments
- Overeaters Anonymous (OA) Not Working
- I went to one OA meeting and never went back again. I didn't think food addiction applied to me. That was a long time ago, WAY before my surgery (gastric bypass).
Open Chronic Pain
I have been in pain for 7 years. I have fibromyalgia, 4 herniated c-spine discs and nerve pain. I don't know where else to go. There's so much more to explain.
Treatments
- Flexeril Not Working
- Took Flexeril for a couple of years. Had to change to Zanaflex.
- Heat Not Working
- It feels good at the time but doesn't relieve the pain
- Hydrocodone Somewhat Helpful
- I took this drug in the year 2000, when I first started having pain problems. It didn't help that much, but it worked a little bit. I don't remember the dosage.
- Lyrica Considering
- I am dying to try Lyrica. My pain doc mentioned it about 3 weeks ago, just before my occipital nerve blocks.
- Meditation Considering
- I'm looking to join a reikki circle and I hope it could help me. Tried it one time a few years ago, and it was the first time in years that I felt relaxed.
- Morphine Somewhat Helpful
- I took morphine Avinza, for a couple of months. It may have helped some, but I felt so "drugged out" most of the time.
- Nerve Blocks Working / Worked
- Just had bilateral occipital nerve blocks done a couple of weeks ago. They seemed to help...but head/face pain and pressure has been returning in the last week or so.
- Neurontin Somewhat Helpful
- Hard to tell if it's helping...I used to take 2700 mg of Neurontin before February of this year. Now I'm back on it, nearly a year later but on 600 mg three times a day, as of yesterday.
- Oxycodone Somewhat Helpful
- Taking percocet now every 4 hours as per today. Was taking it 1 every 6 hours. Seeing pain doc on Monday
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- Had a couple of courses of PT, but like the heating pad thing, it felt good at the time (the PT), but didn't help relieve pain. My pain doc even told me to stop the PT, mid-way through because he said himself that it wasn't worth continuing, because it didn't help me.
- TENS Not Working
- The TENS didn't help me at all. I haven't used it in years.
- Zanaflex Somewhat Helpful
- Been taking Zanaflex for a couple of years I think. When I was taking it more frequently it seemed to help but now Im not sure. Ive been taking it for a few years. I take 4 mg 4 times a day.
- Elavil Working / Worked
- Ive been taking this since the year 2000 when my pain first began. I take 100 mg at night bedtime. I took 50 mg for a time but was brought up back to 100mg.
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- Ive been taking xanax for my muscle spasms for nearly 7 years. The dosage has risen from .5 mg three times a day to 1 mg three times a day. My neurosurgeon first prescribed it to me for my muscle spasms. Im not sure how much it works for me at this point but I continue to take it.
- Ambien Working / Worked
- I wouldnt be able to function if I didnt have Ambien to help me sleep. It doesnt work sometimes but most of the time it does. I take 10 mg at bedtime. I used to take Ambien CR but had to come off of it for other reasons.
- Valium Working / Worked
- I took Valium 10 mg three times a day for a couple of months. Was taken off of it but I felt pretty drugged out when I was on it. I guess it helped with the anxiety but not pain relief.
Open Eating Disorders
I am a compulsive binge eater. I had gastric bypass surgery last year in February, and have lost 153 pounds to date. But since October (halloween) I've started eating and bingeing on foods that my body can't handle. Now I'm compulsively bingeing and I am really out of control. I know my situation sounds weird, but I didn't do this compulsive bingeing before I had my surgery...
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Considering
- I'm waiting to see if I get an intake date at a local hospital's eating disorder clinic.
- Paxil Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Abilify Too Soon to Tell
- Just started this med two days ago. Psych told me it should help with the mood swings and anxiety....well see.
