I have been diagnosed with bipolar and major depressive disorders, and have experienced intense panic/anxiety attacks. I am very lonely and can be kinda shy but used to be a social butterfly :( I'd like to find people who are like me to lean on. My job is nice and easy so I spend all day here. Unfortunately chat is disabled on my work PC but send me a message any time!
I have been diagnosed with bipolar and major depressive disorders, and have experienced intense panic/anxiety attacks. I am very lonely and can be kinda shy but used to be a social butterfly :( I'd like to find people who are like me to lean on. My job is nice and easy so I spend all day here. Unfortunately chat is disabled on my work PC but send me a message any time!
I like music a lot - I find I like to play what matches my mood. I especially like rockabilly and psychobilly lately. I have been listening to a lot of Death Cab For Cutie, Reverend Horton Heat, and Gnarls Barkley lately. I don\'t have cable but I watch a fair amount of TV. I like PBS and WGBH - like Antiques Roadshow, Globe Trekker, Nova, This Old House, American Masters, and the cooking shows on Saturdays. I also like America\'s Next Top Model, The Office, Extreme Makeover Home Edition (OMG I cry every time I see that show!) and Scrubs. I like movies too! Some favorites are Fight Club, Nightmare Before XMas, and Shawshank Redemption. I read every day on the bus - it\'s nice to have that me time. I like novels of all stripes. Favorite authors include Chuck Palahniuk, Stephen King, and Barbara Kingsolver. I\'m pretty much a homebody nowadays. I was a total social butterfly as a teen and in my early 20s but now I just have, well, not many friends and that depresses me. I don\'t drive and neither does my bf so we\'re very isolated. It\'s hard for us to make new friends because we have to be like \"You like us? Well, you have to drive over to our house if you want to see us.\" and that sucks. So please, be my friend! And hey if you live in the Metro West area of Boston and feel like making a trek, come by and have some coffee or something with me :)
I like music a lot - I find I like to play what matches my mood. I especially like rockabilly and psychobilly
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lol thks they are soo cute! Kl sounds lik a nice job =] xx
ooo looks really nice mite try that! thks. whats your new job? xx
hey how are you?? x
I stink lately being online. I think it's been almost a month and a 1/2. Anyway, congrats on your new job! Keep me posted...I'll check in more frequently.
Cool, half day! Doing anything fun for the weekend?
I have dealt with depression my whole life, but last year started to also feel more anxious than depressed, and had my first panic attack last fall, following a major caffeine overdose. I gave up caffeine but still have the occasional panic attack...about once a month or so. Sometimes I feel absolutely friendless and could really use a helping hand, even if it's a stranger on the internet.
Diagnosed bipolar as a teen. Been in and out of therapy for years - currently flying without a net. Therapy's expensive and doesn't really do much for me. Same with meds. Meds make me a zombie incapable of having orgasms...yeah, no thanks. Have good support from my bf but generally feel friendless. Depression comes and goes but when it comes it's like a fucking tidal wave. I'd like to meet some folks and get some support so I don't feel so damned lonely all the time.
Panic attacks are kinda new for me...had my first last fall, after a really bad caffeine overdose. Basically it feels like I'm having a bad acid trip. I usually cry, thrash around, my muscles lock up, I can barely breathe...my bf helps me calm down and take a Xanax. Also have depression and general anxiety.
Hi there - I'm MelbaToast. I have been dealing with depression since I was a teen. I am firmly against anti depressants and have been doing CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) online, for free, through a website called moodgym the past few days. I like it; I find the methods to be simple yet effective. I struggle daily with reaching out to people. I need to make some friends but get really shy around new people. I don't drive so this is a huge handicap for me. I have really low self esteem.
I have a lot of trouble making new friends. I used to have a million of them but have lost touch with just about everyone. I don't know how to drive so the few friends I have must either come to me, and/or pick me up if we want to hang out. This makes me feel like I'm a burden to them. I miss my old friends. I have a great bf and a few people I talk to on a semi regular basis but no "BFF" and I really miss that. I just want a friend. And if you're in Boston maybe we can even hang out!
