I wrote a discussion post, it went like this....
September 19, 2009 3:02pm
Ok so I was a member on here for a while because my cousin, and best friend molested me for almost eight years. But here's the thing, have you …
alimac2009 
1:05am Thursday
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alimac2009
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About Me
I am 17 years old until December 5th rolls around. I may be getting married soon if not I will be getting married in December. Im totally in love with this man and I do not think I could live without him. He is everything I have ever wanted and I have been looking for him my entire life. Im done with being lonely and Im done with hating my life (although I still live with my parents so therefore I still hate life). Ok Im done no more to say about me.
I am 17 years old until December 5th rolls around. I may be getting married soon if not I will be getting married in December. Im totally in love with this man and I do not think I could live without him. He is everything I have ever wanted and I have been looking for him my entire life. Im done with being lonely and Im done with hating my life (although I still live with my parents so therefore I still hate life). Ok Im done no more to say about me.
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I literally like everything. From Pink glittery shit, to punk skull crossbones etc you get the picture.
I literally like everything. From Pink glittery shit, to punk skull crossbones etc you get the picture.
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Omg, Im lost once more in this --ing maze of a life. I have no idea what...…
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no one wants to help me .......goin to work message me if u have any messagers so we can talk that way ok?
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Sorry
i've had some girl i met from here to go kill myself ... thats not helping ... i didnt ever think someone from HERE would say that to me ...
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i've had some girl i met from here to go kill myself ... thats not helping ... i didnt ever think someone from HERE would say that to me ...
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OMG LOL I nearly died laughing over that last hug you gave me... yeah I suppose someone out there does find that I have a slammin bod, but they're either too shy or too dumb to ask me out yet. 22 and still all alone... ah... sighs... it's okay though. I'm really not that anxious to be with anyone these days anyway. Enjoying my own company doing things I love and not worrying about anyone else and their feelings. I'm glad you'll take my advice. At least then I know that things will change for the better for you. Hugs and Love, Marcy
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I'm sorry that sounds rough.. perhaps it's harder to see that you are hurting because when you're closer to a person you can be blinded by the fact that you love them so much you don't actually see that they are hurting. You should mention what you told me to him and ask for his help. Please. It's important that you do so. Take care of you and the rest will fall into place. Love and big hugs. I'm doing okay by the way. Just real happy with life right now. Bitterness lurking under the surface, but I just shove those feelings away... I want to be happy and I'm trying. I hope you do too. Hugs, Marcy
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI started about three or four years ago. I got so depressed about everything that I started cutting and burning myself and I even drew pictures like blueprints of my death. I stopped when I was a freshman in high school and then last school year i started back up again because I met e friend that did it too. I chose over the summer to get betterand she said she was getting better but she lied. I am though. I haven't cut since 5/24/07.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I had a bad experiance with a counsilor that got on my nerves but I tranferred to a different one and I love her she is awesome.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- After my mom found out I cut she now notices whenever I look depressed and she talks to me about it. My family helped me a lot after they found out. A really big help too was my cousin. She had similar problems but she couldn't hurt herself because she has four kids and a husband.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- I was given it just in case I can't get to sleep with my Wellbutrin. It's as needed.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I actually tried Lexapro, prozac and I have had a bad time with those so then I switched to Wellbutrin and Now I am on 450 milligrams of that and I like it. It gives me energy to ke4ep up my personal hygeine and work out. I have lost almost 30 lbs with it too.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I love to write anyway but I now write even more and I get everything out becauses now I don't worry about who will be reading it.
- Music Working / Worked
- No matter what kind of music it always calms me down.
Close Self-Injury
I used to cut a lot I have been for Four years.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Teen Sexuality
I am a virgin and I think maybe I'll always be one. I have never had a boyfriend but I know I never will because now I realize I'm a lesbian and now I think I'll never get a girlfriend.
Open Fibromyalgia
I have had Arthritis since I was 4. A rew years ago I found out I had this too and my doc said there were no medications or anything for it only pain releivers like tylenol and stuff.
Open Shyness
I moved to this new school around 7 years ago and I was never shy before then. After I movede everyone teased and harrassed me because I was different so I learned to shut my mouth and keep to myself. Now I don't have any enemies but a lot of people wanting to be my friends but I can't bring myself to talk to them. When I do I get really red and nervous.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Too Soon to Tell
- Pets Too Soon to Tell
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Self-esteem Too Soon to Tell
- Self-help Too Soon to Tell
- Singing Too Soon to Tell
Open ADHD / ADD
I always knew there was something up with this but I have never been able to figure out what it was until last week I took a test that said for sure that I have ADHD.
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
Open Obesity
OMG where to begin!! I wasn;t always obese but hardly anyone is. I went through a big time depression and aet and watched TV and that is how I got so big. I can't work out that much because I also have medical problems and my family is obese so it is hard to go on a diet when there is junk food all over your house.
Treatments
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I started taking this for my depression and it has a weight loss side effect and yet it also makes me really hungry but I have lost a lot of weight due to it. 25lbs to be exact. Still losing though.
Open Migraine Headaches
I have suffered from migraines since I was four I think. They are going to do a catscane soon to see if it is anything to worry about.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I can't diet becus i hardly eat anyway, I eat healthy too it's just I have hypoglycemia and it affects it big time.
Open Asthma
Type: Cough Variant AsthmaI have had asthma for a few hundred years and I decided to start smoking last year!! I wanted to die anyway so thats that.
Treatments
Open Anxiety
I was diagnosed with depression and since then I get anxiety attacks when I am frustrated since I am trying to stop cutting myself.
Open Anger Management
I have LOADS of problems this would be a long a$$ story.
Open Eczema
I have had this since I was diagnosed with JRA. I don't think it is related but I have had it since. It only shows up when it is cold though.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I am a very strange OCD victim. I have weird ones like I can't put a sock back on if I have taken it off even a little bit. I am sure there are weirer ones like the book Kissing Doorknobs someone should read that sometime.
Open Food Addiction
I am addicted to food!!! It tastes so good when everything else in life makes me sick!!!
Open Phobia
Type: Social PhobiaI actually have a fear of public speaking too.
Open Lactose Intolerance
My only real problem is if I have something that isn't vitamin D whole milk it curdles in my stomache and I hack it back up. Pretty graphic huh?
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
Open Insomnia
I have been having a hell of a time sleeping at night. forever to get to sleep then I can't stay asleep and it doesn't help any when I can't even take a nap in the afternoon.
Treatments
- Meditation Working / Worked
- I recently found this little cure. My councilor advised it for me to get over my shyness and when I tried it the first time I layed down on my floor and meditated and woke up about an hour later, ready to clean my room!!!
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Its as needed, side effect of wellbutrin XL
Open Pet Bereavement
When i was about four, i started getting sick with arthritis n stuff n my parents got a dog..which i bonded with deeply b/c she would sleep with me n call my parents when i got sick. mom tried so hard to get others i guess to teach them to do the same, now im attached to all of them n dogs dont live that long, n she keeps getting more. I had a dog, my first one, and i raised him from a puppy, i fed him milk n everything. they beat him i think, n he started biting them,n i had to get rid of him.
Open Arthritis - Juvenile
I have had this since I was four and thankfully was told two years ago that it is in remission. but i have a feeling it may be back.
Treatments
- Celebrex Working / Worked
- This is now supposed to be as needed since I no longer have big problems with it. I used to take Naproxen but it gave me dreadful bloody noses...
Open Paranoia
I havent been diagnosed but Im scared to tell my councilor about my problems because I think that she thinks I need to be admited. Does that sound like a good explaination of my paranoia?
Open Sexual Abuse
I have been molested by my gay male cousin for over eight years and I did it back to him b/c I thought its how friends show affection. I didnt realize until about two years ago what exactly he was doing, and making me do. Before then I was having problems with it and now Im having even more problems, now that I realize what was happening.
Treatments
Open Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaIV been a binger since I started depression. Now all of a sudden my depression is back and food makes me sick. Hopefully its reversing this time.
Open Incest Survivors
Oh wow where to begin. My best friend, and cousin, molested me for eight years. He convinced me that its what friends do, until recently I discovered Oh my god, Iv been molested all this time and never realized it how fucking retarded does this make me??
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
I havent been clinically diagnosed, I diagnosed myself with symptoms. I cant get checked....long story.
Open Rheumatoid Arthritis
Juvinile Systemic Rheumatoid Arthritis...since age 4.
Open Parenting Toddlers (1-3)
I met the man of my dreams and he has a two year old from another relationship. Im kind of lost when it comes to parenting but I think I can manage.
Open Step Families
Im a step mom and some things I need help with...
