laurenanne6's Journal

I'm sitting at home nervous to go out.  I'm picturing where I want to go and feeling the fear of going there.  So here I sit.  Trying to feel better but getting nowhere.  As I sit I feel the guilt of not working welling up.  Which is worse?  Both affect me and many other people.  I need to find the courage and go.  It's so easy to put off but at the same time not.  I mean, yes, I am sitting at home not doing it but it's not because I don't want to.  It's because I'm afraid and would rather sit at home in my cocoon safe and secure.  However, I feel like Hilary will be frustrated with me when she wakes up.  As she should be.  I have a job and I should be doing it.  I have nine left to hand out.  I need to go somewhere and hand them out. 

Okay, so I have motivation through accountability.  I'm meeting David at Southcenter to pick up some more handouts.  Then I will go hand a bunch out in Ballard and Wallingford.  I will work from when I get there till 7:45.  That sounds good.