deleigh's Journal

Hi Deb,

   Just checking in with you to see how you been?

Well let me tell you something.  I have more energy now.  Hoping the cymbalta has kicked in!

 And I don't ache in my body like I use too!  And added plus!

Still something is not right feeling with me.  I just here lately, get upset, with people being in close spaces with me.  Like at work.

And I work with a real lazy dumbass.  She drains me everyday.

But I need my job, so I gotta do it.

My emotions are running crazy.  I love and hate satellite.  Some of the old tv shows bring up good and sad memories.

I am angry and sad too at my kids.  They won't let me be.

They drained me of money.  And now do not want to pay it back.   House taxes are coming up soon.   

And my kids do not like Larry.  He is a good guy at heart.  They need to get off my back!

I am the one to be alone, if he leaves!!!  NOT THEM!!!!!!!!!!

Seems they don't care.  Here lately at family events...Heather invites her friends too!  I can't even talk to her anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel anger raging in me...so I am done talking for now....

But Deb, how do you want to live you life?  In fear of your kids?

Nope I don't.  And things are coming to a head.

 My oh my!

love you all!  Please love me back and let me be????