anyways
May 28, 2009 4:19am
before that thing with the text went to shit.
I hate being angry and snarly and god knows what else and I want to let it go but the fact that I …
lstn1drlnd
5:36pm, May 28, 2009
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About Me
I pretty much only come on here when I'm upset, maybe I should rethink that. too much change lately to type it all in here. Outside my head life is good. it's just me that's the problem. Ok so I was diagnosed with BP in April of 2006, it depends on who I saw and when whether they call it 1 or 2 but I have been labeled both along with god knows what else they decided to stick on there. I have my ups and downs, but am generally doing ok. I moved from the LA area to central Mississippi and am still experiencing the culture shock after 5 months. I am currently unmedicated for a variety of reasons, mainly funds. I thought I had the "why me" part of this under control but going on disabilty seems to have started that part up again. I have a wonderful fiance, who makes me feel like there's nothing wrong 90% of the time, which is a big step up from hating one's existance 90% of the time. I also have three cats who are spoiled rotten. I guess that's about all to go into right now.
I pretty much only come on here when I'm upset, maybe I should rethink that. too much change lately to type it all in here. Outside my head life is good. it's just me that's the problem. Ok so I was diagnosed with BP in April of 2006, it depends on who I saw and when whether they call it 1 or 2 but I have been labeled both along with god knows what else they decided to stick on there. I have my ups and downs, but am generally doing ok. I moved from the LA area to central Mississippi and am still
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I wish
May 28, 2009 4:14am
Well I wish a thousand things but right now I just want to be able to be angry one minute and then not ... I guess because I have worked so hard on …
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"Morning" is better than night
May 27, 2009 1:52pm
Ok so by the time I thought of this place and got around to writing something I had gotten way way worse than I had realized. I need to come …
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blegh
May 27, 2009 2:49am
I stand on the edge of giving up completely. I'm ok and I'm safe for now but one change and it's done, I fake my way through …
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Journal Entry for November 10, 2007
November 10, 2007 12:01pm
Just got out of the hospital yesterday and honestly I am feeling rather overwhelmed. I was feeling so great and so strong and so ready to …
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Little Love
Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope you had a great week, and am wishing you a wonderful weekend!
Quote for today:
I know in my heart that man is good.
That what is right will always eventually triumph.
And there's purpose and worth to each and every life.
Ronald Reagan
We are all here for a reason, a purpose. Look deep inside and know that you have purpose and worth in this life and know that others see it as well. You are valuable and loved. Be kind to yourself and you will triumph in all you do.
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Little Love
Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope this day finds you well, and begins a wonderful week.
Fortune cookie says...
Our first and last love...is self love.
Be kind to yourself and see how much we are loved today.
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Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope you had a good weekend, and I wish you the best for the week to come.
Today is World Gratitude Day. I am grateful for all of my good friends and my family. What are you grateful for today?
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Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope you have a wonderful day, and a great weekend.
Today is National Play-Doh Day, our reason to celebrate. Remembering the joys of childhood and the innocents we were.
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Good Morning HUGS for you me friend. How are you this fine day? I hope your day is going well.
Did you know every day is a holiday? Today is mine...It is National Caregiver Day.
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Close Bipolar Disorder
Diagnosed a year ago April with BP 1. Started on lithium as I was manic at the time. Ended up in a major depressive episode in January that started in around October. Went to hospital, stayed a week had wellbutrin, abilify and lamictal added to my pills. Started to feel better. Back into the hospital and out again feeling stronger and more together this time. Hopefully things will go better.
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- Started w/ three other meds don't know what part it played. Knocked me out cold first couple weeks till they had me start taking it at night, eventually that all went away though.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Only in hospital can't find a group around here... or I haven't rally tried.
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- Miracle drug for me, saved me from severe depression. Sleepyness and forgetfulness are the side affects I noticed.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- Cured the mania once I got on a theraputic dosage.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Started w/ three other meds don't know what part it played.
Close Self-Injury
When I was 15 I decided to scratch the word bitch into my arm with a safety pin been scratching and cutting whenever things get bad ever since. Now things are bad ant the cuts just keep staring at me.
